I am a doula and I have never birthed my own child. I have 4 children who were left to me by an indifferent mother...but birth I have never experienced. This has not been a problem with doing labor support and I do love my "work". But being a doula keeps pregnancy, birth and babies in front of my eyes all day, every day. I worked so hard to get certified and now I am thinking maybe I should put this dream to rest because it is proving to be very painful emotionally. I want to be a doula and not for the reasons people think...it is not a matter of trying to be in on something I cannot have myself. But, at the same time, it is hard to be constantly thinking of birth and not able to concieve. Has anyone been in this boat? Any thoughts on this? I don't think that my doulaing has been damaged in any way by this...but personally, how do I get around this road block?