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I'm coming to the point where I am considering medication for my ppd. I've being seeing a therapist since January to try and talk it out but I don't feel I've progressed very far and really I just want to feel normal again. It's been almost six months since dd was born and I really don't want to think about this going on any longer. The psychiatrist I met with in February strongly recommended I start meds but I wanted to hold off because I'm breastfeeding.<br><br>
I wanted to know: Mama's who have started meds, what was your breaking point? Since you started them, do you feel it was worth it? Did you give up bf'ing?<br><br>
I just want to be the best mama for my little one and I need to do what's best. I would greatly appreciate hearing your stories. Thanks anna<br><span style="font-size:xx-small;"><i>Posted via Mobile Device</i></span>
 

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First off, congratulations to you for making a choice that will help you and your family!<br><br>
The first time I went on meds for PPD, my ds was 1 year old. I did not realize that I even had PPD for the first year. I was incredibly anxious, worried about everything, and just thought that was normal for a mother. But my worries were not rational, which I learned through therapy.<br><br>
I had been in therapy for about 4 months when I went on meds. It was like a light was switched on in a dark room. I could navigate my life again. I could see things for what they really were. I knew that I would feel better again after 1 week on zoloft. I could see happiness again. And you know what the REAL thing was that made me realize I needed meds? My ds started smiling at me all the time. I realized he hadn't been smiling because *I* hadn't been smiling! That realization was amazing.<br><br>
I wish you all the best and also want to tell you that you do NOT have to stop nursing. Especially with a 6 month old baby, the amount of med that gets in to milk will be negligible. Prozac and zoloft are very safe in nursing, with zoloft usually being the preferred medication.
 

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My breaking point was my closet - of all things. It kind of took on a life of it's own in my mind. All my clothes had to be lined up a certain way - or I couldn't get dressed. Then it started "judging" me, I could "feel" it thinking what a horrible person I was and how awful I was at everything. The day the closet seemed to be breathing, I ran for help.<br><br>
I did not stop BF. I had a LC I completely trusted and was able to get good reliable information on the medication they put me on. It was safe for BF and good for me.<br><br>
I can't even tell you how amazing it was the day I walked into my closet, picked out a top, and walked back out again. (Without checking the arrangement or making sure it wasn't going to hurt me if I lingered too long.) It took a while for the meds to kick in. But that day was a wonderful day!<br><br>
I've been off and on meds most of my adult life. I took a class recently and they are learning so much about a depressed brain. They've done brain scans for people depressed and not depressed and they are very different. The pathways are different, so you're actually thinking differently when you're depressed. I just think that fact is actually fascinating. (I come from a long line of, it's all in your head suck it up and deal with it, kind of people. It was nice to have medical science tell me it wasn't because I was weak.)
 

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<div style="font-style:italic;">I'm coming to the point where I am considering medication for my ppd. I've being seeing a therapist since January to try and talk it out but I don't feel I've progressed very far and really I just want to feel normal again. It's been almost six months since dd was born and I really don't want to think about this going on any longer. The psychiatrist I met with in February strongly recommended I start meds but I wanted to hold off because I'm breastfeeding.<br><br>
I wanted to know: Mama's who have started meds, what was your breaking point? Since you started them, do you feel it was worth it? Did you give up bf'ing?<br><br>
I just want to be the best mama for my little one and I need to do what's best. I would greatly appreciate hearing your stories. Thanks anna<br><span style="font-size:xx-small;"><i>Posted via Mobile Device</i></span></div>
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My breaking point was suffering in silence after my first was born. I never said anything to anyone, not really...and didn't even realize that I was suffering from mega depression until after the fact.<br><br>
4ish years later, when I found out I was pregnant with Ds I started feeling moody towards the middle of the second trimester.<br><br>
Not *typical* moodiness, either. It wasn't normal...and honestly, I've probably needed to be on anti-depressants for most of my teen-adult life, but due to my parents LITERALLY forcing them down my throat when I was a teen, I always resisted.<br><br>
I didn't want to go through the ppd again with Ds, it wasn't healthy for anyone...so I opted to start Zoloft during my pregnancy. It's the safest their is for pregnant/nursing women. I was cautious, of course, and scared even. I had the pills for awhile before taking them...but then when my Dh was away on vacation and I was hysterical I popped one and instantly felt better (placebo, to be sure...but still!).<br><br>
Ds is now 10 months old, still nursing and I'm still taking Zoloft. He's healthy as can be and hasn't suffered any health problems at all. Honestly, I think it's more unhealthy for the kids to deal with a miserable, depressed mom than a medicated one.<br><br>
"talking it out" is good...but it just doesn't cut it when you are clinically depressed.<br><br>
Good luck.
 

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My breaking point was not sleeping for 3 nights in a row. There's nothing like extreme sleep deprivation to send you over the edge.<br><br>
I started meds 'early on' in my PPD journey - almost as soon as I was diagnosed. I'm grateful I did. I've seen no ill effects in my kids, and it's allowed me to be the parent I should be. I still get stressed, cranky, irritable, sad, happy, etc. The meds just allow me to cope rationally with the emotions.<br><br>
I started on meds (Paxil) when ds was 6 weeks. I breastfed him for 16 months. I went off meds, but had to go on again just before getting pg with dd. I was on them all through my pregnancy, and nursed dd for 4 years while on meds.<br><br>
For me the risks of not taking meds outweighed the risks of taking meds. There is a risk to being depressed and untreated. I've seen the ill effects of that in my own family, and it probably predisposed me to depression (because my mom was depressed when I was born). There are also cognitive and social/emotional risks to the child that have been documented through research. Ideally, meds wouldn't be necessary. But for me, they are right now.
 

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My dd was 8 months old before I decided I needed help and at that point, I had already given up BF.<br><br>
I can't really say there was one real "breaking point," but I just kinda realized that there weren't any more excuses left. After dd was born, there were a lot of things that went on. BF was a STRUGGLE and I gave it up at 5 months. I also had a tooth that had previously been filled that responded to birth badly and ended up needing a root canal. But we had changed insurances and the new insurance had a waiting period that I was trying to wait out. The tooth wouldn't wait any more, and at one point my entire face began to swell and I called my dentist's cell phone at 10:30pm on a Saturday for pain meds and antibiotics. I was in a LOT of pain for a while because of that. And we were having some serious financial issues because I wasn't working. But by 8 months old, we were 3 months past the BF issue, the tooth was fixed and our finances were just about under control, and yet, I still had days where I was just sitting on the floor with dd, crying, while she crawled around me. I just really felt like there weren't any more excuses.<br><br>
I talked to my primary doc, who started me on Paxil. Unfortunately, I reacted badly to it, and ended up in the ER with Tachecardia. (sp?) Although, he also stuck me on a sulfa based antibiotic for a spider bite infection, and really, there's no way to know if it was the Paxil or the sulfa based AB (something I had never had before, so it's entirely possible I am allergic to sulfa based AB.) But, to be safe, we switched anyway. I went on Wellbutrin, which only served to up my anxiety like times 12, and I also tried some Xanex to pair with it. After a month or so, we decided that wasn't working, so I tried one more thing, Risperdal (sp?).<br><br>
That really really helped. For a while. Then the side effects began to really get to me. It caused a weight gain. It also increased prolactin levels in my blood, which had the same effects as BF, which was kinda heartbreaking after having given up BF. And, I already get migraines, and with the risperdal, I was having them like 3 times a week.<br><br>
So, in December, I weaned myself off, without telling my Doc. I seriously do not recommend that anyone go off antidepressants without supervision. I wasn't suicidal, but I began to understand those who get that way.<br><br>
Ironically, I credit that mess with my pg this time. DD2 was conceived through IVF and we dealt with 6 years of IF. And hindsight being 20/20, I now realize that one of the biggest environmental factors in my PPD was a deep fear that DD2 would be our last. I "NEEDED" one more, but I was sure that we weren't going to ever be able to afford another IVF and was beyond terrified that I was going to end up raising "two only kids." DD1 is 13 years older than DD2 and is really more like an only. I didn't want DD2 to have to grow up basically without siblings. The increase in prolactin levels caused my ovulation to become somewhat inhibited-when BF, AF showed at 8wks pp, while on risperdal, I ovulated once in 2 months, had half an AF. But apparently, going off caused me to immediately ovulate and we got pg, naturally. I genuinely don't believe it would have happened had I not been on that specific med, or if I hadn't decided to go off it then.<br><br>
Now that I AM pg and I can look back, through the relief that DD2 will get to actually grow up with a sibling, and realize that I probably could have benefitted from some therapy too. I think that would have helped me to realize at the time that the fear of IF again was such a contributing factor.<br><br>
So, I guess what I can say I learned from that is that there is a place for therapy, that it can help to uncover some underlying causes, that meds might just mask. Also, it can take a bit of trial and error to find a med that will help. Also, even if it helps, it's important to judge the side effects-are they worth the relief that the meds might bring. And, all meds take a while to kick in, they kinda need to build up in your system a little.
 

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I saw a psychiatrist around 2 months postpartum and was diagnosed with OCD. I have been on Zoloft since then (gradually worked up from 25 mg to 100 mg) and have been doing really well (though it took a while--maybe 6-8 weeks? for it to really kick in).<br><br>
Zoloft is a great choice for nursing moms--my OB, psych and pediatrician all feel comfortable with me continuing to nurse.<br><br>
Many meds are actually compatible with nursing, so definitely look into it. And a happy and whole mama is the most important thing to your baby anyway. :)
 
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