Freaking out a little....ok A LOT

Wishing your husband the BEST in the interview and I hope you are able to continue SingAH with DD uninterrupted!!!

As a sort of 'pick-you-up' (I hope... I've been misinterpreted lately ), I'd like to share some stuff that's happened in the last year with me and my fam.

Ok, so DH graduated in May. He had what seemed like a REALLY great job quite soon after graduating and worked there for around 2 months. One night he came home early and told me he was fired. I was shocked, but had sort of had a feeling that something upsetting would happen that night. I heard the story of how it happened from him and, really truly, it was not his fault at all - his X-boss does coke and is emotionally unstable... we actually think the man was intimidated by my DH... anyway... so, DH went back to a restaurant that he'd worked at previously - less money, but also less time so he could look for another job.

He actively began looking for a better positon with better pay (striving to advance his career as well as support our fam) and I started to think that I should start working again. (I'd quit my teaching job that March because I was extremely depressed, having anxiety attacks, and panic attacks - all of which were caused by leaving my baby... I know this because they completely disappeared within a week of becoming a SAHM.) I felt sick... I mean, physically ILL, thinking about going to work and leaving DD and the whole time I was looking for that kind of work I would feel jittery and ill. So I started to look for WOH or WAH opportunities, but still felt out of sorts as a result - it felt as if I should just NOT try to do either. This went on for quite a few months (around 4-6).

Finally, I told my Father in Heaven in a very long and tear filled prayer that I felt he was just expecting me to put it all on him - to increase my humility or something, but I confessed that I wasn't at all sure and I didn't really understand why He might want that of me. (I definitely think it was to increase my humility now... I didn't think of myself as prideful, but I really was in many ways that I can much more easily and readily see through the 20/20 or hindsight!)

Anyway... it was a VERY difficult time (the 4-6 months) because I took so long to get to that point. I mean, we were eating only food from our garden and that which was given to us by my church (we could have received medicaid, but I didn't want to deal with the buerocracy(sp) and in my religious belief system you try to avoid gov't help as much as humanly possible).

I truly believe that the Lord was waiting to help us until I gave it over to Him... but am not trying to say it IS the case for you, just something to consider. I believe this sooo strongly because DH actually got a job within a week of me giving over my fears, frustrations, and efforts to control of the situation to my Lord!!! TRULY! Some might say he would have gotten the job even if I had not prayed, but I disagree because he'd been working on getting that one position for at least a month before my talk with The Father and basically nothing was resolving. In ONE conversation he had with the hiring guy after I prayed he had the job! It's a faith thing, though, so if you disagree that's totally cool, too.

This job hasn't been the most wonderful, but he's moving to a new positon that really looks like it will be a sort of dream-come-true situation for a new chef who is family oriented! And it wouldn't have been available in the way it currently is at the time that DH started the job he will now be leaving.

I guess, my long story is to express my belief that the Lord has really wonderful plans for us. And I TRULY believe that He wants as many mamas to be home with their babies as is possible. Sometimes he tests our resolve to maintain this situation with things that come up and experiences of life, but all will be as it should as long as we have faith, IMHO.

Now, I'm really NOT trying to start any religous debates or anger anyone who feels that I'm attacking their situation. That is NOT the case at all... just sharing MHO.

gribbit, I DO believe all will work out for your best benefit and I hope that you will be able to see and feel it sooner than later! Best wishes!!!

This is really something. I was just looking at the various threads and I came across this one. My DH was layed off last month and I am a SAHM as well. I have four children and my youngest is around the same age as your oldest. I have been a SAHM for 7 1/2 years. I totally know what you are going through. I have times when I freak out as well. It is the whole thing of not being in control. Not being able to plan simple things as planning what the kids are going to do for the summer or where we will be living. We currently live in Minnesota, but we are originally from Chicago. We moved here 2 years ago because of my DH's job, and now we don't know if we will be moving back to Chicago or staying here. Of course, family wants us to move back to Chicago, but that is new home, new schools, new everything.

One thing that really brings me through tough times like the PP said is the power of prayer. When things are out of my control I depend on the ONE who is in control.

My husband has an interview tomorrow with a company. It is a contract job. This would be nice because we can have some money coming in, but we can also focus on our dream of real estate investment. My husband is a licensed mortgage broker(side job) and I just passed the real estate licensing exam to become a realtor. Our vision is to own rental properties and have a steady cashflow coming in, and offer our renters discount on closing cost if my husband finance their mortgage and I find them a home.

I don't look at this lay off as an obstacle, but an opportunity. Much SUCCESS on your future endeavors. Your family is my prayers. Just keep holding on. This too shall pass.