Get me off the intervention train (novel-length)

(New to this board)...

I am in over my head. If I do not take some action I will be induced at 38 weeks, with IV antibiotics, and a low-blood sugar baby who is given sugar water.

Here's the background....

My fourth son is due August 21.

Ds #1: homebirth, 11.5 pounds, true shoulder dystocia, a midwife trained by Ina May herself. The moments that we couldn't get baby out, and then the minutes that they couldn't get him breathing, kinda scarred me. Especially since my awesome midwife barely got there in time! (apparently because her latest boyfriend was sleeping over) My whole labor lasted only 6 hours, and when I called her, again and again, she was sure I had plenty of time (I didn't sound freaked out enough for a first time mom)...she sent her helpers who were not capable of handling the dystocia. So I guess, while continuing to advocate for women's rights to birth how they choose, I got a little scared to do it again myself.

Ds #2: Had gestational diabetes. had to move to a different state at 37 weeks. Found a 'medwife' CNM with a hospital birth center. She was sure baby was even bigger than ds#1, talked me into induction at 38.5 weeks. Jonas was so snurgly and gurgly, I really don't think his lungs were quite ready even tho he was 10.5 pounds. CNM emphasized how I should be so thankful to not have a c-sec for such a big baby, especially after the first birth.

Ds #3: saw an OB who doesn't believe in c-sections just for large babies, especially when I proved I can do it vaginally. But still, induction at 39 weeks. (with IV ABX because I had GBS) This baby was scrubbed within an inch of his life immediately after birth, placed in a mandatory baby warmer, and left there while his blood sugar dropped and dropped. I was so doped up from the epidural, and 14 hours of pit labor, that the most I could muster was to insist that he get the sugar water with a syringe instead of a bottle. Dh could no longer keep his eyes open at this point, and wasn't able to help. I actually let a labor nurse leave the room with that baby, because I wasn't strong enough to keep him with me. I liked and trusted the nurse, but that was soooo against my personal beliefs and I didn't feel I had a choice.

NOW>>>>>>

30 weeks pg. with ds#4. Already he is enormous. From experience, I figure he's at least 5 pounds by now, if not bigger. I had high blood pressure (145/95) for a week or so in the 7th month, but its totally resolved now. Back down to 174/74 or so.

I flunked the initial GTT screen. Actually I scored 130, which doc said was borderline. I'm scheduled for the 3-hour tour tomorrow but I do not want to go. I know I'm high risk (significantly overweight, Native American, previous big babies and GD)....but how can it be right to stuff me full of sugar, on an empty stomach, and draw off a pint of blood over 3 hours? Wouldn't it be more logical to stick to my high-protein diet, no sugars, etc. without going thru the test?

I'm gonna flunk that test. I know it. And if I do, not only will I have an induction again, my baby will also be high-risk and whisked off to some nursery for his own good.

No. NO. NO. NO. no.

I was looking over my list of stuff for baby Toby's birth: no ABX, no PKU, no Vit K, no eyedrops, no bath, no warmer, no circ, no vax, no sugar water.

Yeah, right.

Somebody tell me that not all midwives are highly trained flakes. Somebody tell me that if I can push out 10.5 pound babies with an epidural, flat on my back, with ease, than I can trust my body to have big babies. Somebody tell me not to go for that stupid, stupid test in the morning.

Help me, please!