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I'm having one of those days. I had always had in mind that I wanted a LOT of kids. They ended up spaced out much farther than I wanted, though, and my eldest will already be almost 11 when this one is born. I'm turning 30 in a few weeks, which for the first time seems old to me.
We're not really where we hoped to be financially or stability-wise at this point. We still have probably a few more moves before we can settle into our "til retirement home". Dh didn't really have in mind having more than 2, and when he got his boy with the second, he was content to stop. However, I kind of talked him into a third, which he's never regretted. This one, while we had been planning to ttc in a few months, was a surprise.
For the first time ever, I've felt like I could be done. After all the rest, I couln't imagine feeling complete without more children. Now, I feel like this is probably our last one. I'm at peace with that most of the time. If I have a vaginal birth, I will probably just do an IUD to leave our options open. If I have to have a c-section, I will likely just get my tubes tied at the same time.
Today I'm feeling sad that this could be my last pregnancy. Not that it could be my last baby, just that I will never go through pregnancy again.
I feel like I didn't completely enjoy any of my pregnancies because there has been a LOT of stress in our lives during each one. Yesterday was the very first time that I really wanted to give birth and have the baby here. Mostly, I'm just wishing for time to slow down so I can have a chance to get used to the idea of having another one already and actually enjoy pregnancy.
*sigh* Too bad I'm in no way a candidate for being a surrogate. I think I'd like pregnancy more if I didn't have to worry about everything that happens after the baby's born.

For the first time ever, I've felt like I could be done. After all the rest, I couln't imagine feeling complete without more children. Now, I feel like this is probably our last one. I'm at peace with that most of the time. If I have a vaginal birth, I will probably just do an IUD to leave our options open. If I have to have a c-section, I will likely just get my tubes tied at the same time.
Today I'm feeling sad that this could be my last pregnancy. Not that it could be my last baby, just that I will never go through pregnancy again.

*sigh* Too bad I'm in no way a candidate for being a surrogate. I think I'd like pregnancy more if I didn't have to worry about everything that happens after the baby's born.
