I didn't know I was pregnant until I had already miscarried. I feel like this loss is almost harder than my 11 week loss, where I got to love the dream, love the baby growing in my for a good month, and than had about two weeks of knowing that I was going to lose it, a painful time, but I was able to prepare for the miscarriage. This feels like it never even happened. But it did, and it's wrecking me. I never anticipated the horrible feelings that I felt on Mother's Day...the tears were just endless...just venting here, knowing that you ladies are the only ones that could possibly understand.