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This has been a long time coming...today was the day, my mom met us at story time and then we drove to the playground where i left dd with her grandma, she was screaming mom and chasing after me crying, she watched me as i drove away. i almost turned back, it was hard walking away from her but, i knew it was okay and that i <i>had</i> to do it.<br><br>
It felt really good to be on my own. Lately, it has been like i have this little dictator ruling my life...i know that she needs the space as much as i do even if she cries and says she will miss me.<br><br>
She will be four next month and she does not want to spend <i>any</i> time apart and i cant do that anymore...i've been waiting, waiting for her to get a little older for a long time so that she would want to spend some time apart but, it hasnt happened so we are having to just do it.<br><br>
I took my dog for a walk, it was so nice to be able to just walk...my dog seemed much more relaxed too...i didnt realize until then how much dd runs her life too.<br><br>
I'm wondering if dd is showing signs of something wrong by this clingy behavior? i'm concerned...i want her to develop socially, she can be very social and make friends easily yet, the story times we have been going to lately she is very standoffish and gets downright cranky, i'm not sure if that is because we havent been going to the same one for a period of time and she needs to get comfortable or if i need to be really working with her on feeling safe with other people ugh...i dont know <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><br><br>
my mom stopped back by here a little while ago and dd was smiling and happy to see me and then as they drove off to go have lunch, I was smiling<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin"> and she, was looking at me like <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">...how can you do this mama?<br><br>
I had time to think about doula training and i still feel strongly i want to do it but, I start to question, what will i do with dd if she needs/wants to homeschool? I feel torn between being mama and living <i>my</i> life and how to balance the two.a few hours to myself isnt enough for me to figure this stuff out but it is a good start.<br><br><br>
they are baack.......
 

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It is important to meet the needs of our children, but if we don't meet our needs first, we have nothing left to give.<br><br>
I'm glad you took some time to yourself. It is critical for us moms to realize that and make time for ourselves too.<br><br>
Your daughter will adjust and when she knows she can come back home and you are always there, she will find it easier. Also, her clingy stuff may subside as time goes on. My kids go through phases of that and then phases of independence. When they are clingy, I find it difficult, but try to spend more one-on-one time to help them through it.
 

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I'm amazed that i have been able to do the 24/7 dedicated & loving mothering to my daughter with only a half dozen times away from her in these four years!<br><br>
It was a big deal for <i>me</i> to do this today...maybe it stems from my not having enough attachment and attention when i was a child <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/shrug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="shrug"> anyway, it was a really good thing and i felt we were ready for it, it felt right when other times it didnt. Dd did have a good time, my mom told me as they were waiting in line for food dd said, we need to go wash our hands! at times she fights me on that one and i'm happy that she brought it up on her own! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin"><br><br>
Were doing it again on saturday <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up">
 

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