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Yesterday I was running a breastfeeding drop-in at the midwifery clinic...I arrived a little early to open things up. Then temptation got the best of me and I "borrowed" a doppler, stretched out on the couch and found my baby's heartbeat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so incredible (although I did feel bad DH wasn't there to share). I'm almost 13 weeks and my next appointment isn't until about 15 weeks and I just couldn't wait any longer.<br><br>
The only thing is...this <b>still</b> doesn't feel very real. I'm not sure if I can explain very well but I knew I was pregnant before I took the test, noticed changes in my body etc etc. I then had two positive home tests. Then because of feeling so good I decided to check "for sure" and did serial hCGs...now I've heard the hb...BUT...I can't seem to wrap my head around being pregnant!! I think this is normal - but is it realy? <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment">
 

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Hi, Turtlemum, I think a lot of us can relate! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"> Even after I start feeling kicks, it's kind of a hard concept to grasp that the little one kicking us is going to be our child, our baby. It's a little human being. I almost think it's too wild of a concept for the mind to wrap around! And, that's just with kicks which are a constant once we get further along. So, it's not surprising that you feel that way with a test and a heart beat. I mean... just imagine what our poor partners go through... they don't even feel any of the physical changes, yet there's this odd concept of "child".<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> What a ride this pregnancy thing is. Best to buckle in and enjoy the hills. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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I'm kind of relieved to know that other ladies are feeling like their pregnancy is surreal too.<br><br>
For me, we had a couple of "false alarms" before we actually got pregnant, and weirdly enough, those seemed vividly real to me. To the point where when I found out 2 weeks later (we're using NFP) that I actually wasn't pregnant those times, it felt like our baby died. So now that I actually AM pregnant, I guess it just doesn't seem possible. Maybe it'll feel real after the baby starts kicking.
 

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Ok, Taedareth, here I was JUST telling a friend of mine that when I KNOW I'm pregnant... I'm not. And, when I KNOW I'm NOT pregnant... I end up getting a <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> So... you're not alone in THAT either!!!
 

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Hehehe... thanks Spark. I don't feel like a psycho now <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/biglaugh.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="laugh">:
 

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I had that feeling very strong through out my first pregnancy. I must have told my DH a million times "There really is a baby in there!" the night of my first ultrasound. Then come delivery time, Aric had failed an NST so I was sent right to labor/delivery on a different floor and remember feeling afraid I would be sent home because there was no baby while riding the elevator. 50+ hours later there was a 9 lb baby boy! I have had a couple of losses since that pregnancy so the feeling for me has morphed a little into a fear of losing the baby and still ending up with no baby come December.<br><br>
I like Spark's comment about pregnancy! It really sums up what to expect.<br><br><div style="margin:20px;margin-top:5px;">
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<div style="font-style:italic;"><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> What a ride this pregnancy thing is. Best to buckle in and enjoy the hills. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"></div>
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:LOL :LOL That's exactly how I felt at my first appointment..."geez I hope I really am pregnant because if not I just wasted one hour of this woman's time!"... I can't imagine going into labour still not believing but if it can happen to you it'll probably happen to me :LOL<br><br>
Thanks for all your responses...Spark, you're always so reassuring!
 

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<div style="font-style:italic;">Ok, Taedareth, here I was JUST telling a friend of mine that when I KNOW I'm pregnant... I'm not. And, when I KNOW I'm NOT pregnant... I end up getting a <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> So... you're not alone in THAT either!!!</div>
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not alone at *all*<br><br>
There were a few 'false alarms' before this #3. The orange juice was the kicker. With both M and K, I could drink GALLONS of orange juice EVERY STINKING DAY for at least the first three months of pregnancy.<br><br>
A few different times, just before good ol' AF was due, I would HAVE to have some OJ. But... then AF showed up.<br><br>
Of course, this time around I *KNEW* I could not be pregnant -- orange juice tasted DISGUSTING to me at the time. But... of course.... here I am, due in December <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink">
 

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<div style="font-style:italic;">:LOL :LOL That's exactly how I felt at my first appointment..."geez I hope I really am pregnant because if not I just wasted one hour of this woman's time!"... I can't imagine going into labour still not believing but if it can happen to you it'll probably happen to me :LOL<br><br>
Thanks for all your responses...Spark, you're always so reassuring!</div>
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ack! i'm not the only one! i've spent so much time convinced i'm not ACTUALLY pregnant and am going to look like a big idiot! :LOL
 

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10 days post ovulation but it still seems totally not real. I so understand. With my first child, it was like it was easy to acknowledge and never a doubt. But with this one...it still doesn't seem real even though it was VERY much planned and orchestrated. Hearing the heartbeat helped but I think when I start feeling major movements that is when it will be more real in my head.
 

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<div style="font-style:italic;">Ok, Taedareth, here I was JUST telling a friend of mine that when I KNOW I'm pregnant... I'm not. And, when I KNOW I'm NOT pregnant... I end up getting a <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> So... you're not alone in THAT either!!!</div>
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same here! With Jake we tried for over a year and so many times I just knew that I was pregnant - and wasn't. The month I did get pregnanct I was totally convinced that I wasn't. In fact...don't kick me off for this story... but each month leading up to the pregnant month I was so careful. After I knew I ovulated (we obsessively charted) I wouldn't drink or take a tylenol or be around people smoking, etc, etc. The month I actually was pregnant and thought for sure wasn't I remember thinking it's never going to happen...screw it. So <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/bag.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Bag">: we went to Howl at the Moon and had a rip roarin' time. The next morning I woke up with a terrible hangover and realized my period was late. So dh said I should take a test. I said it was stupid to take it - I knew for sure I wasn't pregnant!! But he wore me down and I took it - and it was Jake! I felt like the biggest jerk in the world. I remember crying hysterically saying that I was already a bad mom and the baby wasn't even born yet. Of course, all's well that end's well but that's my really bad mom story for the day.<br><br>
With this baby the month before we concieved I was completely 100% sure I was pregnant - which I obvioulsy was not. And again was shocked to see 2 lines when I actaully was (although this time I didn't have a pounding headache while viewing them <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment"> )
 

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I don't know why it surprises me when I see the <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> but both times I was in SHOCK!! I still look at Josie and am amazed, she'll be a year in less than a month and I still can't believe she came from me sometimes. I am so glad I am feeling better, because now that I am I think I am enjoying the pregnancy more, with josie I couldn't wait to show, and to feel kicks and I was so nervous/excited/scared about the delivery part, and the WHOLE thing was surreal, even now its like a distant memory. This time I am just where I am with it, not looking forward. Of course I say that now, a few weeks ago all I wanted was for it to be the end so I could feel better. But I feel good now! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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Despite having a (+) home kit test and another (+) test at my doctor's, and having breast pain, nausea and emotional yo-yo stuff, I still wonder if it's really "real". Is that not hilarious?! :LOL<br><br>
I'm really hoping I get to hear a heartbeat at my next MW appt (next Thursday). Because maybe that will make it more "real". But if I'm anything like you, then maybe it won't! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin">
 
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