Here I am again

Hi Famille Huggins

Thank you so much for your kind words. I needed to hear them.

I am also very sorry for your losses Mama . It's a tough road we travel.

I will be back worrying some more I am sure.

s! I am sorry for your loses! Congrats on your pregnancy!

I am right there with you. I am 4 weeks and soooo scared. The rollercoaster of emotions is soooo tough. It is a really rough balance between finding joy and understandable worry. I am starting to wonder if some of my worry is tied up in protecting myself from another loss. But, truly I think that there is no way to protect myself. It would hurt tremendously no matter what. So, I am going to try to tend toward the joyful side. No doubt, this is hard.

Good luck with your u/s! I hope you see all the most reassuring things!

More s!

Okay first off a warning as I am REALLY ticked off so this is a bit of a rant.....

Got back from the u/s - they won't tell me anything : It's their stupid policy that it goes first to the radiologist, then they call my Dr. and that whole crazy process can take...A WEEK!

I really was hoping it was the nice lady I have had before who tells you but this guy was playing by the rule book. I asked him if he could tell me whetehr it was good or bad news - nada. He just had this stone-faced expression the whole time. I don't mean to be man-hating but really they just don;t understand how emotionally tough it is ( can you tell I am angry?!).

I am guessing that if it was ectopic or something that required immediate atention they would have called my Dr. right away. That's all I have to go on.

I am going to call my Dr in the morning and get on to her although she also warned me that it can take a while and that unless it was an emerg I wouldn't have another scan until 12 weeks.....so I will have to wait it out with days full of constant checking and worrying. Why does my Dr. not get how hard this is?

Sorry for the rant but I can't stand this! I feel like moving out of this small town just so I can see an Obgyn who have their own u/s and can give me answers one way or another.

s! I am so sorry for your frustration. That really doesn't seem fair! Waiting for news is absolutely miserable. Hang in there!

Hi Mamas

Thanks so much for the replies. I feel much better knowing you are all here - thank you so much.

I called my Dr today but she was in emergency. Out here the local Dr.s are also our emergency doctors - each taking a shift and today was hers. Now she is off until Tuesday. The receptionaist said they hadn't heard anything back from the radiologist yet and to "hang in there" in bit longer.

I am trying to work on the assumption that no news is good news - that if it was an emergency ( like ectopic which the Dr suspected) they would have called me right away.

I am going to find it very hard to sit and wait for the next 7 weeks or so until I am 'allowed' another scan. I am obessessing over every little twinge. Yesterday I had really bad migraines and felt sick, today nothing so now I feel like that is not a good sign ( that's what happened last time - all my symptoms disappeared and then I m/c).

I am driving myself crazy .

Big hugs! Waiting IS torture. Try to keep busy and think happy thoughts. I've been trying to make myself remain positive this time. There is no way to be prepared IF anything bad happens, so I figure it's better to just live positively. I do still have my moments

Could the bleeding you experienced have been implantation bleeding? That happened to me once and I thought it was a light period. Turns out I was pregnant and it was from the embyo embedding into the lining of my uterus.

Hope you get your results soon

Thank you mamas

Yes, I think the bleeding was implantation but it seemed so heavy for me. That said, I had the same thing with DD and she turned out fine . They did a us at 5 weeks with her and found a heartbeat so I felt much better. We were living in a different place then and had an amazing obgyn who said I could have an us every week if it meant i would be less stressed.I miss that guy!

I`m worried though because my LP has been very short and I think that is why I mc recently.

I know this sounds crazy but the only way I am getting through this right now is pretending that I am not pg so I don`t obsess over every little symptom. It sad that I can`t enjoy the first few weeks of this but I am just so reluctant to get my hopes up. I guess that is pretty negative though!

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From EVERYTHING I've read and learned on these boards the last 2 years is that the heart starts beating in the 7th week. At 5 weeks they usually just see a gestational sac, and yolk. The fetal pole isn't usually visible until the 6th week too. Soooo, sounds like things are fine and that the u/s is showing things that are normal for how far along you are! :

And I would schedule the u/s for the END of the 7th week. Sometimes they will look at 7 weeks 4 days and there will be no heartbeat....they look at 7 weeks 5 days and the heart is beating....it's that miraculous. And I've read of mommas get u/s and the hbs were really low...like only 40 bpm and that was because the heart had JUST started beating that hour!!!The next week, the hbs were normal. Pretty cool.

good luck!!

How agonizingly frustrating! :

I'm keeping everything crossed for you, mama!

s Things sound on track. I hope your next scan gives some more piece of mind.

Thank you so much mamas for your kind replies.

I have scheduled my next scan for Thursday when I should be 7 weeks and 5days...it's the only time they could fit me in,

Patiently waiting until then...well, kind of