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I'm going to be visiting this place a lot more often now. I have got to get healthy again....and lose a ton of weight.<br><br>
A little about me. I've been overweight my whole life. In 2001 I finally joined WW and lost 70lbs. As soon as I got to my goal weight of 130 I got pregnant and gained it all back. When ds was 2 weeks old I went back to WW determined to lose it again and I did. But since then I have let myself go again and am now up to 260lbs. My joints hurt all the time. I have acid reflux. I have frequent daily pains in the left side of my chest. (I worry about a heart attack.) I have frequent daily pains in the right side of my head and a swishing noise in that ear. I don't know what that is but I had it once before when I was big and it went away when I lost weight.<br><br>
I have never been this big and I just can't believe that I have done this to myself again. I was so, so happy when I was thin and swore I'd never gain it back. I am only 31 and I feel so worn out all the time.<br><br>
I have an addiction to food. My eating is not even something I do in response to any emotion. I just do it. I think about it all the time. When I was on WW my addiction was still there but I turned into something else...shopping and exercising. I can't even think about exercising b/c my legs hurt all the time but I know I have to do it to lose the weight.<br><br>
I am embarrassed to go back to WW. I love my leader and the people there but I just don't want her to see what I've done. I've tried to go back several times last year but for some reason just don't stick with it. I want to be happy again like I was when I was thin.<br><br>
My dh and I decided this morning that we have go to do something. We are both out of control. Together we ate a bunch of cookies last night and he was so sick today that he couldn't go to work.<br><br>
This is so embarrassing to talk about.
 

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Good for you for wanting to do something about it! That is the first step. I recently joined a gym and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror doing yoga and was so embarrassed that I thought for a moment that I would stay away until I lost some weight. Then I realized that it is certainly less embarrassing to be heavy and doing something about it, than to be heavy and scarfing down a giant ice cream cone!<br><br>
I can also relate to having a food addiction. I just eat for no reason, and can't stop myself. I eat lots, sometimes to the point of feeling sick. I hate it.<br><br>
A few of us posting on the SAHMs thread have noticed that we don't get the urge to eat when we drink tons of water. Also, do what you have to do. If you want to go back to WW and think you can make it work, do it - those are the people who will understand what you are going through. Start slow with the exercise do what you can and build from there.<br><br>
This is a great place for support, pop in here when you need support - I does help. I am here again today because we are stuck at home due to the snow and it is so hard to control my eating when I am avoiding clearing the snow and cleaning the house.
 

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I've also struggled all my life. I am currently 235ish...I too have acid reflux, sore joints, ringing in my ears, etc. This sucks. But all we have is our determination right now right?<br><br>
Let's stick together and support each other. I'll be visiting this place much more as well. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up"><br><br>
FWIW, I went sledding this morning for about 30 minutes, going up and down the hill I had my heart beating, sweat was pouring out and I was having fun with the kids. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up"><br><br>
Something positive for me for once. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll">
 

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scratch that...241...<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><br><br>
What really sucks is that I have a neighbor who just had a baby on Thursday and she looks like she's never been pregnant...I loathe her...no I don't...yes I do...<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll">
 
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