Last night we were at Walmart gettting the oil changed and picking up some groceries. The baby got hungry to I sat down on a bench to feed her. So I did, but a gazillion people kept walking by talking to me and asking to see the baby and I was getting kind of uncomfortable, so I told dh I was going to go to the nursing area they have in the restroom (which I rarely go to because who wants to eat in a public bathroom, you know?)
So I go into the bathroom and there is a lady standing in front of the chair. I say excuse me three times before she lays on the floor and starts crying -I'm all weirded out, don;t know whats going on and dd is getting kind of hysterical. So I decide to sit on a bench in the layaway area. So I go to nurse her and a lady working there approaches me and says, "Can I hold a blanket over you, please." I'm getting pissed because I have a crying baby and never figured out how to nurse with a blanket. I can't see whats going on. So I tell the woman, "No, I'll just go to the other bathroom." So I lay Willow in the crook of my lap so I can gather my things and this women PICKS UP my baby and demands that I give her her binky. She doesn't have one, but that besides the point. I am PISSED. I grab dd and head to the other side of the store.
I go in and sit down and calm her down enough to nurse. By now there is a line in the bathroom and everyone wants to see the baby. I am just sitting there ignoring everyone and trying my best to calm down from the crazy baby grabbing incident. Then my milk comes and dd pulls off screaming. There is milk spraying everywhere. So here I am in the bathroom, boob out spraying milk all over the baby, all over myself and dd is freaking out. I look up and evryone is staring at me. Now, I'm not a modest person. I don't care if people see my boob, or watch me nurse. I can appreciate the fact that it's not a sight people see everyday. It was the fact that these women were a foot away from me, blatantly staring with looks of horror and disgust on their faces. They looked at me like I was some sideshow circus freak or something. It made me feel like I was dirty and wrong.
I felt a lump in my throat and I started to cry. Sob, and I couldn't stop. Me and dd just sat and cried for a good five minutes and no one said anything. They finally looked away. I have nursed everywhere and anywhere, I have nursed my 16 month old in public even and have NEVER EVER been looked at like that before. I should have squirted milk at them.
So I go into the bathroom and there is a lady standing in front of the chair. I say excuse me three times before she lays on the floor and starts crying -I'm all weirded out, don;t know whats going on and dd is getting kind of hysterical. So I decide to sit on a bench in the layaway area. So I go to nurse her and a lady working there approaches me and says, "Can I hold a blanket over you, please." I'm getting pissed because I have a crying baby and never figured out how to nurse with a blanket. I can't see whats going on. So I tell the woman, "No, I'll just go to the other bathroom." So I lay Willow in the crook of my lap so I can gather my things and this women PICKS UP my baby and demands that I give her her binky. She doesn't have one, but that besides the point. I am PISSED. I grab dd and head to the other side of the store.
I go in and sit down and calm her down enough to nurse. By now there is a line in the bathroom and everyone wants to see the baby. I am just sitting there ignoring everyone and trying my best to calm down from the crazy baby grabbing incident. Then my milk comes and dd pulls off screaming. There is milk spraying everywhere. So here I am in the bathroom, boob out spraying milk all over the baby, all over myself and dd is freaking out. I look up and evryone is staring at me. Now, I'm not a modest person. I don't care if people see my boob, or watch me nurse. I can appreciate the fact that it's not a sight people see everyday. It was the fact that these women were a foot away from me, blatantly staring with looks of horror and disgust on their faces. They looked at me like I was some sideshow circus freak or something. It made me feel like I was dirty and wrong.
I felt a lump in my throat and I started to cry. Sob, and I couldn't stop. Me and dd just sat and cried for a good five minutes and no one said anything. They finally looked away. I have nursed everywhere and anywhere, I have nursed my 16 month old in public even and have NEVER EVER been looked at like that before. I should have squirted milk at them.
