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It sounds like a horrible question, but I really do have huge issues surrounding death.<br><br>
This past week has been particulary bad. I watched one small clip about V-tech on TV and then saw it everywhere on the internet. I cried for 3 days straight. Yesteday a train derailment happened in the next town over and there is possibly a CP rail worker stuck under one of the cars and I could barely sleep last night because I was crying so much about it.<br><br>
Last year there was a car that drove off a bridge here. Scuba divers couldn't get his body out when they went down so they had to pull the car up FIRST and then take the body out once the car was back onto the bridge. I was really upset about that as well.....but it got worse. In the weekly newspaper the next day they had a picture of the crane lifting up the car. I had nightmares for about three months because the body was in the car in the picture (couldn't see it of course, but I knew). I had nightmares until there was another bad accident on the highway, and then my nightmares turned to that.<br><br>
I don't have nightmares about someone dying if I know how they died. Even if it's a heart attack or a stroke, I have nightmares. My BIL is a fire fighter and they respond to first responder calls so when we have family dinners, the gruesome stories about some of his calls come up. I usually walk away but I always manage to hear a little piece of the story which sends my mind into a friendzy.<br><br>
I will be starting clinical for school soon. We are spending 8 weeks in a long term care facility where odds are I will see someone very close to death or someone who just died. I know I'll be able to handle it at the immediate moment, but I'm worried about the nightmares afterwards.<br><br>
I was also having horrible dreams about my children dying. The three particular dreams were that I was filling up the car with gas and the kids were in their car seats. THe car lit on fire and I couldn't get my kids out. Second dream was that I was driving to my parents house and I didn't make a corner and drove right off the edge. I took my seatbelt off and kissed my kids goodbye. I cant even drive that way to my parents house anymore because I'm too scared. Third dream was that our house lit on fire and I couldn't get my kids from their bedroom upstairs. These three nightmares are the ones that always replay.<br><br>
Anways, I've rambled but I don't know how to handle it anymore. I don't know if there's some sort of homeopathic remedy that stops nightmares. I've tried valarian root to help me sleep better, but it doesn't help with the nightmares.<br><br>
Any ideas?
This past week has been particulary bad. I watched one small clip about V-tech on TV and then saw it everywhere on the internet. I cried for 3 days straight. Yesteday a train derailment happened in the next town over and there is possibly a CP rail worker stuck under one of the cars and I could barely sleep last night because I was crying so much about it.<br><br>
Last year there was a car that drove off a bridge here. Scuba divers couldn't get his body out when they went down so they had to pull the car up FIRST and then take the body out once the car was back onto the bridge. I was really upset about that as well.....but it got worse. In the weekly newspaper the next day they had a picture of the crane lifting up the car. I had nightmares for about three months because the body was in the car in the picture (couldn't see it of course, but I knew). I had nightmares until there was another bad accident on the highway, and then my nightmares turned to that.<br><br>
I don't have nightmares about someone dying if I know how they died. Even if it's a heart attack or a stroke, I have nightmares. My BIL is a fire fighter and they respond to first responder calls so when we have family dinners, the gruesome stories about some of his calls come up. I usually walk away but I always manage to hear a little piece of the story which sends my mind into a friendzy.<br><br>
I will be starting clinical for school soon. We are spending 8 weeks in a long term care facility where odds are I will see someone very close to death or someone who just died. I know I'll be able to handle it at the immediate moment, but I'm worried about the nightmares afterwards.<br><br>
I was also having horrible dreams about my children dying. The three particular dreams were that I was filling up the car with gas and the kids were in their car seats. THe car lit on fire and I couldn't get my kids out. Second dream was that I was driving to my parents house and I didn't make a corner and drove right off the edge. I took my seatbelt off and kissed my kids goodbye. I cant even drive that way to my parents house anymore because I'm too scared. Third dream was that our house lit on fire and I couldn't get my kids from their bedroom upstairs. These three nightmares are the ones that always replay.<br><br>
Anways, I've rambled but I don't know how to handle it anymore. I don't know if there's some sort of homeopathic remedy that stops nightmares. I've tried valarian root to help me sleep better, but it doesn't help with the nightmares.<br><br>
Any ideas?
