[InstinctiveMama]

I could have written your post today. I think I dealt better with lonliness before I met my stbx. I love my son and it's not that HE makes things worse but having to deal with lonliness AND try to be a good parent and take good care of him by myself all the time makes everything 100x more difficult. The mama guilt on top of my own feelings can be unbearable some days.

I feel for you mama. Some days it really is THAT bad.