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Hi All,<br><br>
I had my baby in Jan. and have been a hyperchondriac ever since. About 5 weeks after having dd, I snapped. I had to take her to the ER for a fever and they tormented her there. At that time I had a electrical shock go through my body and pins and needles that lasted a week or so. I went online and decided that I had MS. After all, I was dizzy and had pins and needles, what else could it be (post-partum anxiety?). I went to the doctors and he said I was fine. After pestering him enough he gave me a brain MRI. It turned out fine. Then I found out it could be in your spine w/out being in the brain, so he sent me to a neurologist. The neurologist said if you didn't have insurance I'd tell you you don't have MS, but since you do I'll give you a large sum of tests. That was 6 months ago and I've only had the blood work done. I started seeing a therapist and it's helped some. Of course, time has helped as well. Since I snapped I've had many forms of cancer, MS and Lupas. I've tried Zoloft and Paxil and the side effects are to close to my MS symptoms, so I can't take them. They make me crazier. I've also had mastitis 3 times w/ fevers up to 105.7, which is why I thought I had Lupas.<br>
Would love to hear from anyone that has a this form of PPD.<br><br>
Thanks!
 

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Been there, done that.<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/rolleyes.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="rolleyes">: My depression began around my ds2s first birthday and just got progressively worse. I began having all sorts of heart symptoms, panic attacks that mimicked a heart attack. I was sure that I was going to die of a heart attack at any moment. I had all sorts of heart tests run and was told I was fine. The symptoms didn't go away and my doctor told me I was a hypochondriac. It was overwhelming and I was sure I was going to die. I kept getting worse and I was just sure that the doctors were missing something. I went through thinking I had MS (a common thing for those with clinical anxiety), a brain tumor, you name it, I had it.<br><br>
Long story short, I ended up in the hospital for six days and was finally diagnosed with clinical depression (my ds2 was nearly two by then) and anxiety. I was put on Lexapro and an anti anxiety med in the hospital. I was able to not use the anti anxiety med except for extreme cases after I left the hospital. The antidepressants have annoying side effects at first, but let me tell you, the Lexapro was an absolute dream. I had forgotten what it felt like to feel normal. I didn't realize how far from normal I had gotten until I was back. It is truly frightening to think back. Zoloft and Lexapro work well for those whose depression includes anxiety, like ours.<br><br>
How long were you on the Zoloft? It takes about 6 weeks to get to the point where you will notice a difference. Some people notice earlier, but typically, by the time the side effects wear off, the med is up and working in your system. I was on Lexapro for 8 months and Zoloft for one month (9 months alltogether) and weaned myself off in June to get pregnant. It takes roughly nine months for the med to get your brain chemistry back on track (give or take three months either way.) Talk to your doctor about the meds and see if what you are feeling is normal. Don't live with the anxiety, it will eventually wear you down.<br><br>
If I can find my whole story, I'll link it here later.<br><br>
Best of luck and keep posting here. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">
 

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Thank you so much for your reply. It really does help to hear someone else think they are ill and are not. I'm also concern w/ meds. b/c of b/feeding. Things are really improving, it's just hard when I start having an "episode ". They don't last as long as they use to. Glad to hear that you are recovering, it gives me hope!
 

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Insearch, am sorry that you are going thru this. it really sounds like it had been awful for you.<br>
I would agree that you try to stay on the meds that you're prescribed for time enough to work. even if it is hard. adjustment and time for it to kick in is one of the "side effects' if you will.<br>
ive been on paxil since it is shown to only very minimally get into the breast milk and no side effects shown on babies.--- of course that can be hard to accept but when we go through the hell of pms we just might take that risk and pray to god it will be alright. i had to do that. my dd, 2, is healthy and smart so far.<br><br>
i know you tried to pm me and couldnt get in my box. i dont know what the problem is there, my box is not full. anyway pls check your pms and give me a call anytime!<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"><br>
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Try not to worry to much about the meds and breastfeeding. A doc at the UofIowa had been doing an ongoing research study about the effects of breastfeeding and ssri's. Basically, the research has show that the med gets into the breastmilk in trace amounts, but when they test the babies blood, the levels are undetectible. I have several friends who have been in the study. I will be going back on Zoloft a couple weeks after this baby is born and I have no qualms about it. Make sure that your doctor prescribes a med that works well for anxiety also (Zoloft was great for me) because some of them are more targeted toward the depression and don't help with the anxiety.
 

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Hi insearch,<br><br>
I am so sorry to hear you are having hypochondria. I am a hypochondriac too. I go through spells where all I do is obsess over something. Some mornings I wake up and look on the internet about something that is bothering me or the kids and worry about what it could be. I just can't help myself. I went to the doctor a couple of months ago b/c i was convinced I had pancreatic cancer. She determined that I probably had gastritis. My epi-gastro (sp?) area was tender. And sometimes I have places where gas collects in my abdomen and I am sure that I am about to die. My 18 month old woke up a couple of months ago and her knee would give when she walked. This happened just that morning and it hasn't happened since. The doc said it is common for them to have extra fluid int he joints and not to worry. He ran blood tests and they said everything was normal, but of coures I obsess over muscular dystrophy or something. That would have shown up on the blood tests. But then he said one of her liver enzymes was a little high and he did some more testing and then said not to worry b/c it was nothing. But here I was yesterday, doing a search on the internet for that liver enzyme and all of this stuff popped up-- and I just can't shake it. I am taking her Friday to have more blood drawn (I need to have her tested for lead poisoning anyway-- just moved to an old house)... and I just can't function. I am probably sitting here worrying over nothing, and I just can't do this anymore. Meds aren't the answer for me, because we are really poor right now, and no insurance. Not to mention the fact that I *hate* the idea of meds, and have been on them before and didn't like the way they made me feel. (Zoloft and Celexa.) That's not an option anyway b/c of the money. For now I will wait until Friday and hope to God that her blood tests come back normal. Then, if they are not normal, I think I will fall over and die. If they are normal, i will stop worrying (for now).<br><br>
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Hi Mel,<br><br>
I've read some really great books that have helped. One is Phantom Illness and the other is The Anxiety Book. Phantom Illness you have to order online. I started Yoga too and it really has helped. I do not want to take meds either b/c of the way they make me feel; so I have to be very pro-active on working on my real disease which is hyperchondria. I no longer allow myself to look up symtoms online and I am not getting any tests done. It's hard to resist looking stuff up and going to the doctor. So when I feel like doing that I start working on my anxiety instead. I look up anxiety or health anxiety online. Sometimes I call a close friend who is also a hyperchondriac or I pick up one of the above books and remind myself of the real issue. Now I'm just tyring to ride them out and they don't last as long. When I dive into an "episode" by calling the doctors and reading health sites I get much worse.<br>
Thanks for posting it helps to know there are others out there. Another thing I like to think is that even if I were sick I'm still being a hyperchondriac. Even sick people don't get this insane. I also repeat this quote a lot, I forgot who said it, "My life has been horrible, none of which has actually happened." I don't want to live that way!<br><br>
-Laura
 
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