I feel stupid for being so upset, but I can't help it. Dh left very early this morning for four months for work...he was really struggling to find a job since right after Thanksgiving when we moved here. Financially, we have been doing really bad with no money coming in, I thought we'd have to move in with my mother for awhile to get on our feet. As a last resort, I sent his resume (after asking him, of course) to a few cruise lines, and one hired him. He doesn't get back until mid-July, and I have been beside myself all day. I have never lived alone before. I have a vehicle that's big and extremely intimidating for me to drive (today was the first day I drove in well over a year). I don't even know my way around to places here (I was very pregnant when we moved and haven't done much at all). Our son is six weeks old, and sometimes when he gets fussy, only Dh can comfort him. I so badly want to call him and tell him to come home. We need the money (we're really far behind in my student loan payments and a bunch of other things), this is a job in his field that he went to school for and he's getting paid well, but part of me feels so stupid for sending his resume. I don't want to call him or e-mail him right now because I know I'll just make him upset if he knows how upset I am. I guess I just needed to vent, I'm so sad.