The first few months staying home with dd I was uncertain. At times, even unhappy. I felt like all my free time had been robbed. I wanted to sit and read a book and not be interrupted. DD demanded so much time and attention, and I just wasn't used to it. But now, at 3.5 months, I have finally begun to enjoy our time together. Maybe I have stopped putting so much pressure on myself to never put her down. Perhaps I have realized that playing with her is more fun that reading. I don't know what happened, but I am finally really enjoying our time. I get to spend every day, all day with the most amazing person in the world, even if she can't talk. How could I not love that? I am so incredibly lucky. I am so relieved I finally realized it.
That's such a beautiful post. It's really such an adjustment, esp. in those early months. Parenting is a lifelong learning adventure. Just when you think you've got it all figured out, things change....I'm so glad to hear you've found peace and inspiration when you needed it most.