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<p>So I m/c in September at 6w6d however I was likely never that far along. I am now pregnant again and due in late June/early July. I spent the first week or two after getting my BFP wishing I could feel worse so that I knew everything was coming along in my little oven...but now that I feel so poorly I am crying because I am miserable. I have absolutely NO RIGHT to complain really ~ I wanted this so badly and I knew that I would likely be very sick like I was with DS...but I swear it is just so unfair to spend my days of being pregnant being so freakin' miserable.</p>
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<p>Making it worse ~ my brother and his wife just had a baby in September. When my brother called the other day he was asking how I was doing and I told him pretty much the same as my pregnancy with DS. His response was to go on and on about how "easy" his wife's pregnancy was and that she felt better than she normally feels...yada yada yada. I swear in that moment if I could have jumped through the phone I would have slapped him!</p>
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<p>I have such feelings of guilt over being so miserable because a friend has just had to lose her pregnancy due to severe abnormalities ~ and I know if I were in her shoes I would be wishing I could feel miserable and still be pregnant.</p>
 

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<p>It's hard when you are in the moment...no matter what that moment is if you are miserable.  I have been terribly sick this pregnancy and I get the "Oh, I never felt bad!" all the time.  Like somehow I'm doing something wrong.  It is no fun to be sick and miserable and have no energy.  Trust me, I know the feeling.  I feel like I get so much more support online about these things because people in IRL seem to disregard me or criticize.  I think they are trying to help, but they aren't.  Around here, everyone is a bit more sensitive to those things.  Don't make yourself feel guilty for anything.  It is what it is and you feel the way you feel.  If you want to have a little pity party, go for it...maybe just don't express it to those like your brother or your friend.  :)  I hope you (and I) start feeling better soon!!!</p>
 

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<p>You have every right to express how you're feeling. If you're miserable allow yourself to say so. It doesn't discount your loss, your role as a good friend or make you ungrateful in any way. Pregnancy can be rough! Moan and groan and complain all you'd like. There are plenty of mamas here doing it along with you and I don't think any one of us are terrible people. I was so sick and so outside of myself a couple weeks ago that all I wanted was not to be pregnant anymore. I felt horrible but tried to see it as a testament to how poorly I felt rather than a reflection of my love for this baby. Only now at 12w, after getting a quick peek at my babe and quickening am I staring to feel decent. Before long we'll have 3rd trimester complaints!</p>
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<div>I'm sorry that your brother was so oddly insensitive. What a bummer.</div>
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<p>Take it easy on yourself, lady! <img alt="love.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/love.gif"></p>
 

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my pregnancy was conceived right after a first trimester loss. i went from feeling worried about losing the pregnancy to almost feeling regret about being pregnant because the nausea was so bad. to top it off, i have emetophobia (fear of vomiting), so nausea makes me really anxious. i kept quiet about my feelings at first because--1 i didn't want to tell many people about the pregnancy knowing i could lose it again and 2--i didn't feel like i could complain because this was a 'rainbow' baby, i thought that was supposed to be perfect??? i think the combination of the depression from the loss, plus depression over feeling so awful physically, plus the crazy pregnancy hormones just did my emotions in completely. i ended up feeling completely desperate, trapped in my body, crying all the time...it was bad. luckily, i have started taking vit b6/unisom and milk thistle and the nausea is much much lessened. my anxiety is way down, i am enjoying dreaming about the future, i feel happy now that i am pregnant, and i am looking forward to meeting my baby.<br><br>
be easy on yourself. there's no one right way to feel. being sick stinks! you can still complain and be happy about the pregnancy at the same time <img alt="smile.gif" class="bbcode_smiley" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/smile.gif">
 
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