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<p>A week ago I had an ultrasound at almost 22 weeks and there was no heartbeat. I had an uneasy feeling going in, I hadn't been feeling much movement for a few weeks, and what I was feeling didn't seem like enough (and was apparently tummy rumbles or something).</p>
<p>I went in and was induced 2 days later, and had a little girl we named Faith. We held her and then had her cremated. Yesterday was her funeral.</p>
<p>I felt a lot better after the funeral, and was focusing on being thankful for my 3 healthy kids and a wonderful husband. Today though, I just can't stop crying. It is horrible. My brain won't turn off and keeps running ideas through my thoughts like I got listeriosis or something from our cows milk, or did something to cause it. I just feel terrible. I know common sense (and the docs I talked to) said I couldn't have done anything, but I just hurt so bad.</p>
<p>There was a small placental abruption, but the doctor said it was less than 10% and it was hard to say if it did have an affect. I don't know what to do... I can't keep going like this, how will I ever get back to normal?</p>
<p>I went in and was induced 2 days later, and had a little girl we named Faith. We held her and then had her cremated. Yesterday was her funeral.</p>
<p>I felt a lot better after the funeral, and was focusing on being thankful for my 3 healthy kids and a wonderful husband. Today though, I just can't stop crying. It is horrible. My brain won't turn off and keeps running ideas through my thoughts like I got listeriosis or something from our cows milk, or did something to cause it. I just feel terrible. I know common sense (and the docs I talked to) said I couldn't have done anything, but I just hurt so bad.</p>
<p>There was a small placental abruption, but the doctor said it was less than 10% and it was hard to say if it did have an affect. I don't know what to do... I can't keep going like this, how will I ever get back to normal?</p>