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What will be will be, with babies, as with life, you can only ever plan the things you hope for and wait and see. I agree that some babies are just difficult. My DD gave me a tough PG with high BP, an un-dx thyroid condition and stayed in until 41+4 (long enough to have the obs twitching over the scalpel tray!) and in fact my labour was really wonderful and she nursed like a champion, so even though i spent the last few months thinking she was determined to come out how i did (i was a csection baby back in 1980) in the end she did what she was always going to do, and it turned out to not be SO different to what i'd hoped for (a bit quicker than i'd anticipated perhaps!). I have to be honest, she was not an "easy" baby, she was exactly what i'd expect from her pregnancy, but she is the most joyful, wonderful person to be around. She can be high needs, but she is very high rewards too. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"><br><br>
I think with birth we don't really get the final final say, but look, you've done your research, you've made the choices which will optimise the kind of birth you believe is best for you both and you're doing everything you can to keep that on track. You and the baby are a team, which means he can trust that his mama will do her best for him, and you can trust that if he needs to derail you for his own good/needs he will.<br><br>
Really, what i keep coming back to in my mind, through any fears or doubts i have had, is that this baby knows what is ahead, and all i can do is my best. If my best results in an outcome other than what i'm hoping for, then i think that was probably always going to happen anyway. We cannot know what is before us, that's what makes the birthing woman such an awesome, courageous, powerful creature. That's part of what makes women so strong i think. We cannot know what lies ahead, and yet we tread the path, for our babies, our families and ourselves. We're amazing!<br><br>
I hope your LO gives you some peace from the ongoing am-i-aren't-i-coming-out-the-vagina drama soon, so you can settle down and prepare for labour/birth.<br><br>
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