Okay...this pregnancy, while wanted, was not exactly planned. We were talking about a third baby, but not yet! That might be feeding into my feelings right now...<br><br>
My home pregnancy test was definitely positive, but I find myself still not believing I'm actually pregnant, you know? Then, I get a sudden fear that I'm NOT pregnant, and I want to go buy another test, but I'm terrified it'll say negative! WTF?<br><br>
I already told everyone at work, told all my family, which is fine, and if I were to miscarry, I would want their support, so I dont regret telling them. But for some completely illogical reason, I have this fear that I'll just be "not pregnant" and not have a miscarriage either.<br><br>
I know, this makes no flipping sense.<br><br>
Maybe when I start feeling symptoms then these weird thoughts will go away. I also have this intense fear of my first appt...I know I need an ultrasound because I'm not sure of my dates (breastfeeding), but I'm so afraid there won't be a baby. Or my blood work will be negative.<br><br>
Sigh...maybe this is my first symptom...irrational hormone-induced fears! Every day that goes by and I sitll don't have my period, I feel slightly better, but I definitely don't have the excited feeling I had with my other two.<br><br>
I might be losing my mind!
My home pregnancy test was definitely positive, but I find myself still not believing I'm actually pregnant, you know? Then, I get a sudden fear that I'm NOT pregnant, and I want to go buy another test, but I'm terrified it'll say negative! WTF?<br><br>
I already told everyone at work, told all my family, which is fine, and if I were to miscarry, I would want their support, so I dont regret telling them. But for some completely illogical reason, I have this fear that I'll just be "not pregnant" and not have a miscarriage either.<br><br>
I know, this makes no flipping sense.<br><br>
Maybe when I start feeling symptoms then these weird thoughts will go away. I also have this intense fear of my first appt...I know I need an ultrasound because I'm not sure of my dates (breastfeeding), but I'm so afraid there won't be a baby. Or my blood work will be negative.<br><br>
Sigh...maybe this is my first symptom...irrational hormone-induced fears! Every day that goes by and I sitll don't have my period, I feel slightly better, but I definitely don't have the excited feeling I had with my other two.<br><br>
I might be losing my mind!