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My dd is 18 months. When I first became pregnant, I swore I'd bf for a year. Well... the first year came and went and she was no where ready to give up her nursing, so I continued, knowing it was the best thing I could do for her.<br><br>
I've been determined to CLW since that time, but lately... I'm really not happy with bf'ing <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/bawling.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="bawl"><br><br>
She nurses (and I'm not kidding) 20 times a day. She's on me 2x an hour and 5-6 times a night. I've been trying to encourage her to night wean, just so I can get some sleep, but we are also going through tremendous changes in our family lately (hubby has been gone in training since Feb, we are moving 300 miles away.. it's just nuts) so I feel like I can't even THINK about disrupting her nursing patterns.<br><br>
I'm just so tired, and so tired of being nursed on for what seems like all day and all night. I had to make the drive to our new city to sign on our house this last week (a 5 hour drive) and I had to pull over 5 times to let her nurse because she was so adament about it (I can't let her cry no matter what).<br><br>
I understand that a nursing relationship is all about having both parties happy, but I feel this tremendous guilt about NOT feeling happy about it lately.... but I feel even more guilt for wanting her to stop with all the stress in our life as well. (her nursing hasn't increased at all during daddy's absence, she's always nursed in this pattern).<br><br>
Has anyone out there ever felt like this??? Is this a normal "down time" in a nursing relationship? Part of me wants her to wean so much, and the other part of me knows I'd be devastated if she did.<br><br>
I just feel sooooooo conflicted!
I've been determined to CLW since that time, but lately... I'm really not happy with bf'ing <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/bawling.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="bawl"><br><br>
She nurses (and I'm not kidding) 20 times a day. She's on me 2x an hour and 5-6 times a night. I've been trying to encourage her to night wean, just so I can get some sleep, but we are also going through tremendous changes in our family lately (hubby has been gone in training since Feb, we are moving 300 miles away.. it's just nuts) so I feel like I can't even THINK about disrupting her nursing patterns.<br><br>
I'm just so tired, and so tired of being nursed on for what seems like all day and all night. I had to make the drive to our new city to sign on our house this last week (a 5 hour drive) and I had to pull over 5 times to let her nurse because she was so adament about it (I can't let her cry no matter what).<br><br>
I understand that a nursing relationship is all about having both parties happy, but I feel this tremendous guilt about NOT feeling happy about it lately.... but I feel even more guilt for wanting her to stop with all the stress in our life as well. (her nursing hasn't increased at all during daddy's absence, she's always nursed in this pattern).<br><br>
Has anyone out there ever felt like this??? Is this a normal "down time" in a nursing relationship? Part of me wants her to wean so much, and the other part of me knows I'd be devastated if she did.<br><br>
I just feel sooooooo conflicted!