I'm pregnant.
With tears in my eyes I'm excited but heartbroken at the same time. It really is bittersweet.
My second son was born in August and died 12 hours after his birth. This little one is due just a week or two before my son's birthday.
I'm feeling so urpy and bloated. I'm tired and really emotional. I don't know if the emotions are from the pregnancy hormones or from my grief. I think it is a lot of both.
We were supposed to be done having children. Our two boys were it for us. We were so excited about having another baby. Our 4 yo was beyond thrilled at being a big brother. Our son's death has hit us all hard. We miss him dearly. Everyone keeps commenting on how well we are handling it. What does that mean? We don't have a choice but to go on and be a great family for our 4 yo and for each other. Trust me, I wish the world would stop turning for just one minute but it doesn't.
We haven't told our 4yo yet and probably won't until I start showing. Waiting another nine months for a sibling will be hard for him. He still talks about his brother a lot and makes comments about how he doesn't want me or DH to die, etc. He is still processing his brother's death. I don't want to add any anxiety to it for him. Anyone in those shoes before? How did your other kids handle it?
We knew that having another baby would be emotional no matter if we waited a year or not. I'm not getting any younger and we wanted our children to be closer in age (we thought 4 years was a good spread but now it's going to be at least 5 and that's got to be okay). We decided to start trying again and see what happens. Well, it happened right away, first try. We were a little shocked but excited. Not to mention nervous and at moments not sure how to feel because as others have said - the rose colored glasses are off and we know that pregnancies don't always end happily ever after.
Thanks for letting me share. I'm just getting used to the idea again and have just told a couple of people. It was a little harder than I thought. Putting it in writing helps.
We really are looking forward to another child. I wish I could fast forward and just have him/her home safe and sound with us. The next nine months will be a journey, that's for sure.
With tears in my eyes I'm excited but heartbroken at the same time. It really is bittersweet.
My second son was born in August and died 12 hours after his birth. This little one is due just a week or two before my son's birthday.
I'm feeling so urpy and bloated. I'm tired and really emotional. I don't know if the emotions are from the pregnancy hormones or from my grief. I think it is a lot of both.
We were supposed to be done having children. Our two boys were it for us. We were so excited about having another baby. Our 4 yo was beyond thrilled at being a big brother. Our son's death has hit us all hard. We miss him dearly. Everyone keeps commenting on how well we are handling it. What does that mean? We don't have a choice but to go on and be a great family for our 4 yo and for each other. Trust me, I wish the world would stop turning for just one minute but it doesn't.
We haven't told our 4yo yet and probably won't until I start showing. Waiting another nine months for a sibling will be hard for him. He still talks about his brother a lot and makes comments about how he doesn't want me or DH to die, etc. He is still processing his brother's death. I don't want to add any anxiety to it for him. Anyone in those shoes before? How did your other kids handle it?
We knew that having another baby would be emotional no matter if we waited a year or not. I'm not getting any younger and we wanted our children to be closer in age (we thought 4 years was a good spread but now it's going to be at least 5 and that's got to be okay). We decided to start trying again and see what happens. Well, it happened right away, first try. We were a little shocked but excited. Not to mention nervous and at moments not sure how to feel because as others have said - the rose colored glasses are off and we know that pregnancies don't always end happily ever after.
Thanks for letting me share. I'm just getting used to the idea again and have just told a couple of people. It was a little harder than I thought. Putting it in writing helps.
We really are looking forward to another child. I wish I could fast forward and just have him/her home safe and sound with us. The next nine months will be a journey, that's for sure.
