I just want to let you know that I've felt that way on several occasions during this pregnancy. It's not fun fighting the system.
You know you can do this! Heck, you already did once. Please don't give up hope! Keep looking for a solution. If you truly want this, something will work out. There's still lots of time.
At 29 weeks, I STILL don't know for sure how I'm going to have my VBA4C, I just know that somehow, it'll happen. And it'll happen for you too!