I started dating my ex when I was 17. I'm now 20 & we officially broke up 3 months ago. He was my first boyfriend. My first and only love. We moved in together. We were engaged. We started trying for a kid when I was 19 (he's 3 and a half years older than me). We had unprotected sex for a year and nothing happened. We were trying and it never happened. Long story short, he's a terrible person. He abused my animals, he's hit me a few times. My entire family hates him. But I've always been madly in love with him. He started treating me very badly. Going out to strip clubs, getting drunk at bars every night. And he cheated on me. So I officially ended it with him even though it killed me. I found out a month after I broke it off that I was pregnant. He's now dating the girl he cheated on me with. He absolutely hates me now. I would literally cater to him - make him breakfast, pack his lunch, make him dinner, wash and fold his laundry. I would be laying in his bed waiting for him to get back from the strip club, even though it killed me. He shattered my entire world, and he doesn't care for me anymore. I told him I was pregnant and he tried convincing me to get an abortion. He said he'll never look at this kid like his own and that I'm only having this kid to ruin his life. The thing is - we had unprotected sex for a year. We had sex one time in November, the last time before we broke up, and that's what got me pregnant. I don't understand why it happened now. We were trying for a year, and the very last time it happens. I don't understand what God is trying to do here. Anyways, I can't abort this baby. I'm keeping it, but I'm so scared. I will always love my ex. I'm only 20 and 3 months pregnant now. My ex is with someone else and has been dating her for over a month now. I know he's a bad person, but I've always loved him. Now I'm pregnant with his baby and alone. There's not a doubt in my mind that I'm not keeping this baby... I guess I just need advice. It hurts that he doesn't even care that I'm pregnant, because at one point he wanted this. Now I'm going through this pregnancy alone.