I'm having such a hard time and I have no idea if this is normal given the circumstances. I have days where I am panicked, thinking that maybe breaking up wasn't the right thing to do.... that I just need to try a little harder... let go of a little more.... something. I'm so terrified of what happens when the lease is up and we go out separate ways. I don't want to be away from my daughter. I dont want my daughter to have her world split in two <img alt="greensad.gif" class="bbcode_smiley" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/greensad.gif"> I keep trying to talk myself into looking at things in a positive light: that her daddy loves her and at least he wants to take care of her too, that I'll have "time off," that the day-to-day won't be so stressful and tense and painful b/c I'm not negotiating around another person with whom I constantly butt heads. But inevitably all i can think of is entire days where dd will be away from me (or her dad). Having to split holidays. The inevitable introduction of another woman to her life, maybe eventually half-siblings. It all kills me. It breaks my heart, for all of us. And I know I'm being a little selfish, and I know it's non-negotiable... unless I just suck it up and try to make things work with her dad. But they've never worked, and I'm afraid this isn't something I can just wish away, but I'm trying b/c I'm so scared and sad. I cant tell. I cant tell if this little voice in my head is trying to convince me maybe this relationship is worth saving b/c it is, or b/c I'm scared. Is this normal? How do you emotionally deal with sharing custody?