I have been crying on and off for about 7 hours tonight. I just had it out with my mom, who recently moved closer to us. We have a history of her causing me a lot of anxiety but I've done a lot to work on this and I honestly thought we had gotten to a new level. Today, she made it abundantly clear to me that she is still the same and without going into details, I'll just say, really crazy-making! This is all happening with 2 weeks till our EDD and she is supposed to be at our home birth to help. I'm literally having shortness of breath writing this. She gives me so much anxiety and now I feel like she's done it again, right as I'm about to give birth! My first thought is that I just need to cut her off-I'm so angry! But even doing that, gives me anxiety-she has a way of making me feel very powerless, like a child again. I just can't believe this would happen RIGHT now. And I feel really stupid for thinking she had changed and it would be alright to have her at the birth. I feel like this is my fault and I'm bring all this added stress to our family with the birth imminent. On top of that, I don't think I can sleep. AHHHHH!