okay,
maybe it is because this is my first.
maybe it is because I stay home to take care of our 10 month old.
maybe it is because I breastfed an extremely colicky and refluxy babe
maybe it is because I am the one that doesn't sleep so she can eat, wake etc.
maybe it is because I was the one that wore her all day for 4 months and never slept---like 8 hours a day during the colicky period.
maybe it is because I am the one to do 90% of all actual childcare.
either way, I am secretly resentful and hurt that my babe LOVES it when her dada walks into a room. there is smiles, squeals, high fives, pure joyful playing and fan fare when dada gets home....same for me---nope, more like "oh there's milk lady".
so, yes, I am being an immature secrety martyr right now but I cant' help but think, "she doesn't like me any more".
. sad.
maybe it is because this is my first.
maybe it is because I stay home to take care of our 10 month old.
maybe it is because I breastfed an extremely colicky and refluxy babe
maybe it is because I am the one that doesn't sleep so she can eat, wake etc.
maybe it is because I was the one that wore her all day for 4 months and never slept---like 8 hours a day during the colicky period.
maybe it is because I am the one to do 90% of all actual childcare.
either way, I am secretly resentful and hurt that my babe LOVES it when her dada walks into a room. there is smiles, squeals, high fives, pure joyful playing and fan fare when dada gets home....same for me---nope, more like "oh there's milk lady".
so, yes, I am being an immature secrety martyr right now but I cant' help but think, "she doesn't like me any more".
