I'm not ready to write my birth story yet, I am still processing it myself. But I'll start a new thread when I do. So here's the mini-version:
Our son is still unnamed. He was born at 9:53 p.m Tues. Jun 19th , 8 1bs 3 oz. after a very difficult labor.
I had the best midwife ever. I kept saying I can't do it anymore and she kept saying I could. We tried everything- the birth pool, showers, walks around the neighborhood, labor drinks, yummy yogurt/peanut butter smoothies, back rubs, the whole nine yards. The pushing stage was awesome. When I got those urges to push, I started to smile and get my energy back, because I knew it meant my baby was coming soon. When it came to pushing I was squatting (felt great!) but then baby wasn't tolerating it, so we tried laying down with legs up, then I flipped to my hands and knees to get him out and that felt great.
My little guy had his left hand up coming out and I did tear, but everything is healing nicely.
I am just on cloud 9. The labor itself was so, so hard, much more painful than I was expecting honestly, but the recovery is just amazing. I feel so much better. I am so happy and thrilled. I was separated from my first son and when I finally saw him I could barely take care of him, ykwim? I felt like I had been run over by a truck, and I was so sad, depressed and scared at the same time. This time, this exhaustion from the long labor disappeared as I was pushing and the adrenaline and endorphins kicked in. I was no longer tired. Since the moment of his birth, I can take care of my baby myself- I can stand up, pick him up, change him, feed him. I can use the bathroom, I can eat. All the things I couldn't do after my csection remind me of how lucky I am to have gotten my vbac. The most important part is I got to birth my baby myself, and touch him and tell him how much I love him right away. I got to look down and discover he was a boy for myself too. It was such an empowering experience.
Let's see if these pics work...
Our newest son, several hours old:
Big brother and baby:
Mama, big brother and baby (daddy taking picture!)