[mosesface]

okay, so i've read "the book" and what feels like this entire forum and i know (i really do) that 22 days into my first charted cycle, i have no real reason to freak out.

but i am.
so there.

humph!

my temps are all over the place, i have almost zero CM (i really have to dig for it), i have no idea what the heck my cervix is doing.

i've been sitting here in a pout convinced that i will never, ever ovulate, much less get pregnant.

but then i think back to all those times when i wasn't charting, before i read TCOYF, and had no real clue as to what my body was doing and i have fond recollections of bountiful CM and remember that i have always had a period on a fairly regular basis.

i think that all of this attention i am paying all of the sudden has just overwhelmed me. now that i care so very much about what my body is doing, it has suddenly gone mute.

i know i need to just be patient, pay attention, and hold off on the hissy fits until i have some firm documentation. but i just needed to vent for a minute. and i always appreciate everyone else's venting around here, so i thought i'd jump in.

you guys are great, by the way. there's nothing like curling up with my computer and MDC when i feel a fertility attack coming on.

 

[MCatLvrMom2A&X]

Can you post your chart so we can check it out and maybe reassure you that things are ok?

 

[mosesface]

sure!
i think this is the right link.

 

[Jilian]

If it makes you feel better I didn't O until cycle day 29 this cycle!

hang in there mama.

 

[MCatLvrMom2A&X]

Looks ok to me. The temps are pretty normal. How long are your cycles normally? are they pretty regular?

 

[mosesface]

my cycles are usually around 30-32 days. my last was 32 days. but to tell you the honest truth, i can't really know for sure how consistent that is. i know i have never "skipped" a period, but i've also never really paid this much attention before.

thank you guys for helping me.

 

[Lousli]

If I were to guess, looking at your chart, you have a couple of high sort of wonky temps, but then you dip on CD 20 and start to go up. I would think that you may have a possible O on day 20. If you have 32 day cycles, that would give you a 12 day LP. Maybe you can see what your temp does tomorrow?

 

[SereneBabe]

first, I don't think it's an irrational freakout, just a normal freakout like the rest of us have...

second, I'd say definitely just give it time. pre-O, as you know from reading "the book" can be super duper long (I O'd on day 35 or 36 -- my daughter's 3 yr birthday party was stressful I think?).

the temps don't look crazy to me, though I do wonder if you are literally waking up and reaching for the thermometer or if you're getting up sometimes to pee first, etc.? and, are you taking them at exactly the same time?

until you know your luteal phase you won't know much, kwim?

also, re: the ewcf, I have had almost NONE and always check my cervix and have FINALLY started to understand what it's doing. (I can't tell you how quickly I hop on my husband when I'm not able to reach my cervix no matter what acrobatics I do!)

stress (excitement of ttc) can definitely mess with the production of our ewcf.

listen to me, I sound like I think I know what I'm talking about! funny... I feel so new to this. I'm that reader of TCOYF who was SO ANGRY to find how little I'd know all my life about my own body!

keep us posted!

--Heather

 

[mosesface]

thank you serenebabe and lousli!

for the record, i am definitely waking up at the same time every day, much to my chagrin. i have an alarm clock for this very purpose and set my thermometer, notebook, and pen right beside it! (i'll admit it, i'm a bit of an overacheiver.)

i am so glad to know that there is someone else who has to go hunting for CM!! today i could swear that what little i found was watery (i even did the whole wave my hand around to try to get whatever wasn't CM to evaporate thing)! and, i am mostly convinced that my cervix is higher, softer, and more open today. mostly.

AND, while sitting here just moments ago, i could swear i felt a little twinge on my right side. i froze and just let myself bask in the tiny cramp. come on little egg! you can do it! i believe in you!!

thank you guys for your help. i can't wait to see what happens tomorrow!!

 

[mosesface]

so, i thought my freak out was over. but i was wrong.

i had my little twinge on the right side, my cervix definitely rose up (almost disappeared!!) and i had a good amount of CM, not EWF necessarily, but a a lot (for me) of very watery and then very creamy. then my temps climbed for two days. i breathed a sigh of relief and was convinced that had indeed ovulated.

but then this morning my temp dropped again (granted, i did have to take it about 45 minutes early because my bladder was screaming and i just couldn't wait). my cervix is medium and i still have a lot of CM (lotiony).

did i or did i not ovulate!??!

here's my chart.

 

[OTMomma]

I would guess no, but it would be a guess...sorry.

 

[mosesface]