I am not dealing with this personally, having an overwhelming amount of things to do each day and working non-stop, but I did not want to read and not write. There are a lot of changes with pg and hormones, especially now in the third trimester, can really hit a lot of women hard. Two things you might consider: talking to your health care provider about your concerns about depression (especially since ppd depression might be an issue also) AND finding some support and reasons to get out of the house and force yourself to interact wit more people. Sounds like you are lonley and too isilated. Have you looked into local LLL meetings? Posted in the Trabal areas to find out about other soon-to-be moms in your area who you could connect with? Looked into a prenatal yoga class or something similar? These things would get you up and out, interacting with others, and I think might really help you connect with a happier part of yourself.