this is my 4th baby. my prior births have been quick (like between 5 hrs all the way to the real quick 45 minutes) with no tearing or anything. gentle sweet homebirths. for some reason, i am feeling incredibly resistant to doing it again. i know everything will be fine. the problem is the pain! that stuff HURTS! i tried to watch dd's birth video hoping ide look and think oh that was so fast and pretty easy but is made me feel worse as i had forgotten the times i was hollaring "oh goodness it huuuurrrts!!" anyone else experiencing this? im not sure where its coming from but it keeps me up at night worrying about it. tia!