Yes, I've been getting flashes of panic as well for the upcoming birth of #4. For me its the fact that, having BTDT, and having experienced not birth complications but pregnancy complications, I no longer take the whole process for granted. Also there is the definite lack of amnesia, I do remember how much work is involved. But I am also very excited to meet this new little one (although not for a couple more weeks at least) and I know that I have the strength necessary to help her transition from the womb to the world. And so do you Sara,(and all you other mamas) try to think about the amazing strength you had rather than the struggle of birth. I can't wait to read your great birth story.