[talktomenow]

It's been almost a year now since stbx and I split. And everything is still a mess. I'm broke constantly... I mean, not able to pay the bills, going grocery shopping with $8 broke. I'm still nowhere near ready to be in a real relationship with someone new. Stbx still treats me like s**t. We aren't even divorced because we don't have the money... not sure how that'll ever happen.<br><br>
I'm trying to figure some ways to make money. Dd1 has special needs... part of it is her intense anger and violence, which would make taking in a kid for in home child care difficult. Blah. It's like I'm constantly trying to claw my way out of a hole, and never getting anywhere near the top...<br><br>
How long does it take to get over the break up of the marriage?! I don't know what's wrong with me... I ended it!<br><br>
Sometimes I think I should just take him back... at least some things would be easier...<br><br>
I'm sorry... I just need to vent. It just seems like it should've gotten a bit better by now. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">

 

[MissSavannahsMommy]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
I know it's so hard right now but you did the right thing getting away from him. Your girls will thank you so much later on in life. I know it's just so hard to see the light at the end of a tunnel when you can't figure out what you're going to eat for the next week

 

[Bixby]

(((hugs)))<br><br>
Trust me, taking him back wouldn't make things better, I tried that once.<br><br>
I so know what you mean though. This time of the year is sooooo tight for me, and I hate weeks when I am peering into the back of the cabinet wondering if there is anything for dinner I have overlooked cuz no matter how I dress it up another meal featuring rice and beans is just gonna make me scream!

 

[talktomenow]

Aw... thanks for the replies, mamas. I thought I'd subscribed to my thread, but never got any notices... so I came back to check, and here they were. Thank you.<br><br>
Things are looking up a bit... <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">

 

[Mamm2]

Sorry...don't know your story but I have found alot of support by joining a local church<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/duck.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Duck">: I don't feel so alone and I have numerous people I can reach out to for help. I have recently seperated and I can honestly say this has been a lifesaver.<br><br>
Moral of of the story is to find a support group/system that fits your believe and lifestyle. I read somewhere the following...it takes a village to raise a child. I love that statement and it is true.<br><br>
Good Luck<br><br>
PS In regards to being broke...have you checked for government assistance?

 

[<~*MamaRose*~>]

{{{HUGS}}}<br><br>
I feel the way you do most of the time and I too was the one to call it quits. I've been going to counseling to really help me understand my feelings and my almost always disastrous spontaneity and it's been really enlightening! Did you know that nobody in a relationship is perfect or blameless LOL! Joking aside the counseling is really helping me. I have also gotten he kids involved in some counseling because if it’s tough on me it’s gotta be tougher on them KWIM.<br><br>
PS<br>
As for the money issues I have been working my butt off and I'm now seeing the light at the end of that horrible tunnel.

 

[wannalilcountry]

I understand completelty, it is jsut what I am going thru. No money, being alone, etc etc. All I can say is it has to get better, but I think WE have to make it better. huh, is so much easier saying it to someone else than to myself,lol. I know everything will get better for you, you are a good woman, good mother and you are strong. hugs mamma<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink">