[Jessviola]

sorry, i'm feeling a bit down and hopeless right now. i wish i wouldn't make myself crazy with this stuff but i do

dd will be 25 months on sunday and still no PPAF. i don't even feel like it's close anymore. i'm starting to freak myself out and wonder all kinds of crazy stuff i won't bore you all with. i know it's because dd's still nursing so much....but what if by some tiny chance it isn't?

will it take this long for PPAF to show up next time? i suppose i already know the answer but i'm hoping somebody will say "yes, each time she comes back sooner"

now i'm even starting to worry about not having enough time to have all the babies i'd like. i'm still pretty young, but dh is 10 years older and i doubt he'll be wanting to have babies in 10 years. so that's enough time for what, 2-3 more at most? why am i being so dramatic??? why is it so important to me to have a baby NOW??? why do i feel the need to have a lot of babies??? i only have one so far, i should wait and see how i feel after 2 or even 3. why can't i just accept the way things are and relax??? i know that the reason i'm not pregnant now is because it's not my time, and that when i do get pregnant, all this waiting and craziness will be worth it, but i just want to calm down and stop obsessing

well i guess this is really just a vent.......thanks for reading if you made it this far!

 

[snuffles]

Hi.. I know you are really feeling frustrated right now

If it is any solace, I conceived my third child while still nursing #2 exclusively at 5 months pp.. but then with the third child, I went 16 months with a period. This just goes to say, that every child and nursing experience is different, and there is no way to predict how long you will go without a period with your next one.

God bless

Mel

 

[chrissy]

jessica.

i hear you... totally.

 

[dharmama]

Jessica,

I haven't had my first yet

so I can't relate to the PPAF issue but I can relate to the obsessing and planning aspect!

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The other night I was saying to DH....let's see....I'm almost 30. I'd like to have 3 or 4 kiddos....so how about we just go with no b/c for the next 10 years and let nature take its course -- 2, 3, 4 or more...whatever happens will be great!

A year ago, DH would have looked at me like I was nuts....but now...going on 10 months of TTC....he thought my "plan" sounded pretty good.

Hang in there....this is a great, supportive place!

~Erin

 

[Jessviola]

mel, thanks for the insight!

chrissy, i know you know how i'm feeling here. how are you doing? i've been really curious as to what happened with the provera and if you ever started bleeding? sorry if i missed your post, i got lost at the end of the september threads.

erin, i think that's such a great approach to take. i wish i could convince dh to go along with that, but i don't think he'd be open to that right now. i think i'd be a lot calmer if we were taking the same approach. i can't wait to hear you announce you're pregnant with #1

 

[Milkymommi]

Jessica

I can relate.I am 21mo pp no af and well I'm not sure if I really know what going on with me.My confidence changes from day to day.I'm just at the start of wondering what the deal is here with af.But hey...we can be confused or not...or maybe yes...or well ykwim...TOGETHER:LOL

 

[Jessviola]

kristie,

i noticed you're from CT too. must be the water?

about 21 months PP i started having very confusing symptoms, positive i was pregnant or going to get AF, etc. they seem to have backed off recently and now i feel like nothing's happening except for occasional pains around my left ovary but i don't think they're O related. oh well, i guess'time will only tell'

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i hope you get PPAF or pregnant very soon!!!