Hi all, Happy October!
So, I am worrying about things again. My current worry is BFing. I did very well with my ds (who was my second child), he opened his mouth wide to yawn the first time I tried to latch him on, and he suckled right away, he was a champ from the start. My dd (my first) is still on my mind though, BFing was horrible, and my milk (due to supplementing) was gone by 4 months, and I still feel guilt over it.
My dh and mom keep saying, "well, now you know what you are doing", but it was ds that knew, not me. I keep remebering how hard it is to get a newborn to open their mouth wide, etc. Even with ds I had bleeding nipples and lots of clogged ducts, but I was just so happpy he was gaining weight, and between a LC and LLL, no one could offer anything to change it, but in the end it worked out fine, and he self weaned. So, I am going to re-join LLL (we moved and I was no longer nursing then, so I felt funny joining then), and even taking a class at my new hospital, mainly to meet some LC on staff there, but will I be a freak there, isn't it always people who have never nursed at these classes?
I'm worrying more about how the kids are going to be when I go in to have the baby, will they be ok with my dad? I really want dh and my mom at the hospital (it's a c-birth) dh is a paramedic (and simply he's daddy, and dh) and my mom is a nurse, so I feel safest with them there, unfortunately, they are the only 2 that my kids are *really* comfortable with. I keep thinking about how they are going to feel knowing that mommy, daddy and grammy are all at the hospital with "the new baby". I want my dad to bring them right away, but still....
Well, that was a pleasant way for me to start myself on this month's thread, thanks for listening, anyone else worrying? (I hope not)