It's all starting to get to me now. I've been trying to figure out why I'm getting stressed and this is all I can figure out. Ds is getting better with the new baby, but with me giving so much time to nursing etc, of course he's acting out some. So I spend almost any free time I have with him. But I also have this thing where I need to keep the house clean, laundry done etc, or I feel like I'm being a bad wife, and clutter just gets to me. I thought I'd get up earlier, but come on, getting up every few hours at night makes me grab sleep when I can. So come nap time I'm doing everything I can to keep organized/caught up. But I feel like it's all starting to pressure me and my toddler and baby are picking up on it. It's like I can't even fully relax and enjoy my boys anymore. Help me someone. Am I the only one going through this? And no, I don't have any family around for help and dh is working from 6-6+, so he does what he can to help. I know I need to let some of the house go for lack of better wording, but I don't know how to do that and not end up with a disaster house. Or, since I've been keeping it this way from the start, I don't want dh to think "well, what happened?".