Wow, well I never expected to be here! I was definitely done having kids and here I am.
Somehow I was surprised to see a whole DDC going on here! Since I just found out a few days ago I was thinking so was everyone else!
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But it makes sense if I'm due at the end of Dec/early Jan that some of you guys have been here for a month already!
Well, I have 2 very active and wonderful and needy boys (ages 3 and 6) so this is quite a shock right now. I can't envision HOW I"m going to do this. I also have a sleep disorder and that, more than anything, worries me the most. Both not being able to take meds during pregnancy, and how I"m going to manage with a newborn needing to nurse throughout the night. I'm really honestly scared about that and don't know how I'm going to manage 3 kids on chronic NO sleep. It's been extremely difficult the past 6 years in that regard and I was just getting hopeful that with my kids getting older we'd be on to better sleep in the coming years.
I've also had 2 losses at 12 weeks so it's hard to get invested in pregnancy early. I always think by 12 weeks we are out of the woods and then it happens. So I'm not even thinking a baby is necessarily going to come of this.
Sadly my dh has not spoken a word to me since I told him. I have no idea what he thinks, he had no reaction. I"m hoping he just needs time to get used to the idea, but of course my imagination is going wild thinking he is angry at me (although it took 2 to get this way, it didn't happen all by myself!) I hope we can talk soon.
Anyway- I actually feel great. Pregnancy really agrees with me, I'm so much more emotionally stable, have more energy, love my body, and even with how tough this is I just feel GOOD and have really enjoyed life this past week.
Part of it may be that I'm finally off caffiene- never thought I could do it, but weirdly, as soon as I took the test I had no more desire for coffee and have barely eaten any sugar. Even with my previous pregnancies I could never get off caffiene or sugar.
So anyway, looking forward to getting to know you all, and seeing where this all ends up.
Somehow I was surprised to see a whole DDC going on here! Since I just found out a few days ago I was thinking so was everyone else!
Well, I have 2 very active and wonderful and needy boys (ages 3 and 6) so this is quite a shock right now. I can't envision HOW I"m going to do this. I also have a sleep disorder and that, more than anything, worries me the most. Both not being able to take meds during pregnancy, and how I"m going to manage with a newborn needing to nurse throughout the night. I'm really honestly scared about that and don't know how I'm going to manage 3 kids on chronic NO sleep. It's been extremely difficult the past 6 years in that regard and I was just getting hopeful that with my kids getting older we'd be on to better sleep in the coming years.
I've also had 2 losses at 12 weeks so it's hard to get invested in pregnancy early. I always think by 12 weeks we are out of the woods and then it happens. So I'm not even thinking a baby is necessarily going to come of this.
Sadly my dh has not spoken a word to me since I told him. I have no idea what he thinks, he had no reaction. I"m hoping he just needs time to get used to the idea, but of course my imagination is going wild thinking he is angry at me (although it took 2 to get this way, it didn't happen all by myself!) I hope we can talk soon.
Anyway- I actually feel great. Pregnancy really agrees with me, I'm so much more emotionally stable, have more energy, love my body, and even with how tough this is I just feel GOOD and have really enjoyed life this past week.
Part of it may be that I'm finally off caffiene- never thought I could do it, but weirdly, as soon as I took the test I had no more desire for coffee and have barely eaten any sugar. Even with my previous pregnancies I could never get off caffiene or sugar.
So anyway, looking forward to getting to know you all, and seeing where this all ends up.
