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I'm bleeding. Again. I'm supposed to be 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow and I'm not so sure that will be true. I have a lovely 3yo dd--I had a perfect, super-healthy pregnancy and birth with her. My dh and I are finally ready for another and officially started our TTC journey in March of this year, which is also when I began charting. Since last October I'm pretty sure I've had about 3 chemical pregnancies. This time around things felt different and healthy, until yesterday. I was feeling really crabby and hormonal and then in the late afternoon I could feel my cramping change. They felt more like menstural cramps and less like the stretching, pulling cramps of early pregnancy. I took it easy and got to bed at a reasonable time. I woke this a.m. and noticed some brownish wet spotting. Later in the day, it was pink, then red and just recently I saw a clot. I'm not gushing blood at all, it's just a little bit now and then. I've read the thread about "when the bleeding was okay" and, as much as I'd like to be, I'm not reassured. I keep asking my baby to stay but with each stained piece of toilet paper, I lose a little more hope.
I'm so excited for another baby. I don't want to have to try again. I don't want to doubt my body. I just want her to stay. I don't want to feel this sense of loss and hopelessness again. I just want my body to work as it's supposed to. What's wrong with me?
I've called my midwives office and left a message requesting an appt. in the a.m. for a blood test.
I'm so excited for another baby. I don't want to have to try again. I don't want to doubt my body. I just want her to stay. I don't want to feel this sense of loss and hopelessness again. I just want my body to work as it's supposed to. What's wrong with me?
I've called my midwives office and left a message requesting an appt. in the a.m. for a blood test.
