[ScootchsMom]

Wow. I'm a bit floored, but not totally. Things have been ok. The stupid comments have toned down, we've all been getting along, we've been making it a point to take the kids out for ice cream and a nice drive in the country every weekend. We haven't been fighting either. I'm trying to make things as normal and calm for the kids as possible.<br><br>
Tonight was ice cream night. I went to put the kids in the truck while he locked the door. I had to move DD's booster seat and hidden underneath I found a DISGUSTING magazine. Actually, it was a magazine that was dedicated to the review of all of the top ESCORT SERVICES in the NY area <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/angry.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="angry"><br><br>
So, I didn't hide that I found it. I grabbed it before the kids could see it and threw it on his driver's seat. I got the kids in, and sat waiting for him. He comes out, opens his door and sees the magazine sitting there, looks at me, grabs it and tries to shove it under the driver's seat. Um, why hide it? I saw it already. The only thing I said to him was "I think you forgot something you hid under DD's seat." His response was like, um yeah.<br><br>
OH my God. I am disgusted. I now have to go make an appointment for all the STD testing I can get. God help him if he gave me something.<br><br>
Chalk this up to just another reason I want out. Just when I literally get the slightest glimmer that maybe, just maybe, we can fix this, I find this! I'll tell you one thing, these "men" (And I use that term so loosely its falling off) really know how to prove themselves worthy of the name abuser.

 

[A&A]

I'm so sorry mama. I'm glad you're getting yourself tested.

 

[triscuitsmom]

Oh Mama <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> that sucks.<br><br>
I hope the testing comes back clean so you at least don't have that worry on you.

 

[Theia]

I'm sorry. That sucks. It sounds like you have been in a bit of a honeymoon period. He backed off some to try to reel you back in. A wolf in sheeps clothing comes to mind as a cliche. He's not going to change. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">

 

[ScootchsMom]

Thanks all. I know he was "honeymooning", I was just trying to enjoy it while it lasted. I see it slowly crumbling though, as the comments about the house cleaning have started again today and just a general nasty tone from him. Oh and apparently, I have an "attitude" again <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll"><br><br>
I start testing for a job tomorrow <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up"> so I'll be scarce for the week. Its a LONG test from what I understand. It's decent hourly pay, all online and can be done any time of day or night, so I can work it around my kid's schedules. I've also started looking into writing some articles for money, we'll see how that pans out too.<br><br>
Not sure how I'm going to get to the midwife, I have no one to watch DS anymore. The lady that was babysitting for us has kind of bailed out on me, become very distant, doesn't return my calls until she needs something from me, that kind of stuff. ARGH.