Mama, you still have lots of time to think this through. You don't have to resign to anything. There are always ways and means of meeting needs and a safe place and support for your birth the way you want it is a need. You may have to be more creative than most to obtain it, but it can be done.
Fwiw to you for me to share, it was being in that position that solidified my resolve to freebirth my 3rd baby after 2 c/s. That and I knew that I would die in surgery because I almost did in c/s #2. A later diagnosis of severe hypoadrenia confirmed my instincts about that situation, and I am so grateful that I worked through the emotional stuff to end up being ready for a freebirth rather than the vba2c that was being considered by only one OB and only if I went into labour before 40+5 and only if my 3rd baby was smaller than my 2nd. Yeah right. Nice set-up for a repeat c/s!
I freebirthed ds3 at 44+2 and he was 10lb 3oz and superbly healthy. I had four weeks of prodromal labour and twice broken waters, the first time for a day two weeks before the birth and the second time for 5 days prior to the birth. My labour was 9 hours and excepting first stage, was painless- and awesome!!!
Ds4 was also freebirthed.
Imo, freebirthing or birthing with dp and/or a trusted friend/midwife is the default
and anything else is an option to consider if truly needed
, but not otherwise.
Relax and take the time you need to think about everything that matters to you and your family. If you're open, the answers will come to you.