[Authentic_Mother]

Im confusing myself. I couldn't wait - COULDN'T WAIT! to get rid of the pregnancy symptoms. I felt like they were nothing more than a slap in my face that I had to feel that way but know that there was no longer a baby growing inside of me.
Now that I had my first heartburn free day, and I could smell garlic and not want to hurl - I am even more sad. I also took my pregnancy test yesterday to confirm that it is negative and all tissue is positivly gone.
All of this is making me cry - I guess now I feel like its finally real. That what little closeness I had to our baby is finally leaving and gone. I still love the smell of the wood processing plant but I wonder when thats going to go.
Bleh...anyone else get sad after losing the symptoms - or am I being weird. My poor hubby - I complained about feeling so pregnant and now Im bawling because I dont!

 

[Carlyle]

Yeah. I went through this a bit--peed on the pregnancy test after the miscarriage sincerely hoping for a "not pregnant" (since pregnant at that point would have only meant something scary like ectopic or molar or something), and it still made me tear up. I'm sorry.

 

[JayJay]

Either way is fine. Sometimes you might feel relieved and glad to be rid of the symptoms - other times it might make you sad. It's different for everyone.

Someone I know was very sad when her breasts stopped producing milk and she stopped feeling pregnant after her still birth. I on the other hand welcomed the ceasing of these symptoms and the return to normality as a signal that I would soon be ready and be myself again, and be able to house new life once again. So, when my beasts stopped producing milk, I really did breathe a big sigh of relief. Not that I tried to stop them using compression or anything like that - they stopped all by themselves and I did express a little in a bit of a breastmilk ritual before that engorgement went away. That way I felt it had not been in vain.

Everyone is different. Every now and again, though I have healed very well, I let my stomach muscles relax totally in front of the mirror and I look about 18 weeks pregnant...that truly has freaked me out before - it's like the ghost of my pregnancy still haunting me. But then I keep looking in the mirror and think: yes, that will be me again - this is the spirit of my future child coming to remind me I can do this again...

This time will pass. It's just a reversion of you body - a reset, so there can be anotehr child.

*HUGS*

XXX

 

[MiracleMama]

yes, yes, i know what you mean. the emotional ups and downs after a loss are enough to drive even the sanest person crazy.

 

[Fireflyforever]

I understand ... I finally stopped bleeding 2 days ago (7 weeks and 4 days after giving birth to Emma). I've been so WANTING the bleeding to stop but when it did I realised that the blood I was losing was the blood/lining etc. that had sustained her for 9 beautiful months ... and I felt like it was another step in saying goodbye ...

to you and your DH