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Mallaigh Rose<br><br>
Mallaigh was my first summer baby. I was 42 weeks and 3 days pregnant when she decided to come to us. I felt like I would never give birth. Or when I did, it would be an induction at the hospital. Those last few weeks were spent in close communication with her. Just the two of us; heavy and slow together…I thought a lot about elephants. How they carry their babies for almost two years and how heavy they must feel at the end of it all. Birth is a sacred thing to me. It is a privilege that was given to me, and I don’t take that lightly. It is not something that I fear, or something that I have to go through in order to get the baby. It is my rite of passage. It is part of who we are together, and how we come undone from each other. I don’t think of myself as someone who has to be a “hero”. I am just a woman who absolutely believes in my baby, in myself, in my body, in my marriage, my children, and this amazing gift of childbirth. I have two other daughters. Hannick, who was born at the hospital, complete with Nubain and an extremely unnecessary episiotomy…so that I wouldn’t tear of course. She was ripped from my side, tube down her throat, pumped full of Narcan, all because they were taking “the edge off” of my pain. I didn’t realize that she had anything to do with it. And then she was born and I became a new person. I know now that if you don’t know your choices, you have none. I would have done push-ups if they would have said it would help. I had no knowledge of myself, and so I had no power. Then I heard about doulas. And that started my new life. Kettie, my OP baby, was born at home in the water. She came fast and furious, and it was so beautiful. So lovely. And then there was Mallaigh. I knew she was to be my third girl. Her name means “Mother” in Irish. At the beginning of the week, I decided to start trying natural ways of induction. I was pretty far over and although my midwife could still attend me, we knew that time was getting short. For me, that meant trying to do something on my own. On Saturday I started with “natural” prostaglandins, and continued that everyday. My husband said that he “supposed” he could help out if he was really needed. Such a helpful man I have!! At least one of us was having a good time. It is always interesting to find new positions when you are almost 17 days over! On Sunday I started cohosh. Black and blue cohosh every 20 minutes, 5 drops of each, then 10, then 15, then 20, then a full dropper full, every 20 minutes, changing the dose every hour. It didn’t work at all…but it did taste like crap! Yuck!! I really felt discouraged. It took a lot for me to even try the natural induction methods, as I absolutely believe in letting the baby decide, and here they didn’t even work. On Monday I didn’t do anything, maybe some nipple stimulation, which brought on some contractions, but never started anything substantial. Throughout the process, I kept in close contact with my midwife and doula. I really needed support. My friends came over and threw me a baby-moon, bringing great food and wonderful words of encouragement. It was so wonderful. On Tuesday, I started cohosh again after talking with my midwife and scheduling some time with her for Wednesday to have her check me (I had never been checked, except by my husband, just because I was interested... and I thought it would be cool…I decided not to do it anymore when my cervix started to get harder instead of softer!!) and let her back-up doctor know. We were to schedule an ultrasound for Thursday and talk more about doing something like stripping membranes or prostaglandin gels. That was so scary to me. I didn’t, under any circumstances, want to give birth in a hospital. That was the whole reason that I had decided to start natural induction. I know that I would rather try everything and have it fail to start labor, than go in for a hospital induction having not tried anything. So I looked up information on castor oil and I decided to take a small dose of it. On Tuesday afternoon, around 4pm, I took about 3 tablespoons with some root beer. I had heard how awful it tasted, but I didn’t mind it at all. I barely even noticed it, especially after the cohosh! Nothing happened….at around 11:30pm, I started to feel poopy. So I went to the bathroom and proceeded to learn about what it is that castor oil does! I also started to have pretty strong contractions along with it. They weren’t on any schedule, but they were strong enough that I couldn’t sleep. I would also get the urge to have bowel movements pretty often. At around 4:30am, I woke up Joel (my man) to come and labor with me. He also set up the tub and filled it with water. I let J (my wonderful amazing God-given midwife) know that I was loosing mucous plug and contracting. I was so excited, but also nervous that the contractions would stop. My mom came over in the morning to help out, and my friend Julie came over as well. Joel and I went on a walk up the street. I was wearing my PJ’s. It was so sunny outside and the trees were swaying in the breeze. It was strange. The sun looked weird to me and the world had a strange color to it, like one of those old sci-fi films where there are three suns and it makes the planet an odd color. It is so cool how life continues on, regardless of whether or not you are bringing a new life into the world. My sister came over to help watch the girls, which was wonderful, and she rubbed my lower back (she is a massage therapist) and put me to sleep. My back and hips were hurting. I slept for about an hour and a half. When I woke up, I called my midwife, and she suggested some nipple stimulation if nothing started back up on its own. These are the notes that she gave me:<br><br>
12:30am: Sarah called; contractions for one hour, bloody show – will keep in touch – called V(the apprentice)<br><br>
5:52am: Sarah called – cx 2-5 min lasting 15 seconds to one minute, has not slept, will try to eat something, is filling up tub<br><br>
9:45am: V checked in with Sarah, and talked to Joel, all the same. Will go for a walk and then try to sleep<br><br>
12:15pm: Checked in with Sarah, has eaten. Cx less when laying down but strong when she is standing up or on her right side,<br><br>
3:15pm: Come<br><br>
I started nipple stimulation around 1:30 or so and the contractions started back up strong and consistent. They were much more painful. I have never felt contractions like them. Very sharp and overwhelming. I moved a lot. I got into the tub, which took some of the pressure off, but in no way took away any of the pain. They came in waves. They came in sharp bursts of fire, down my thighs, in my back, in my hips. I got onto hands and knees laying over the foot stool of the rocking chair in the living room. On the video, you can watch Hannick stroking my arm so gently. She was so calm and such a wonderful doula. She knew that mama was ok; she knew that I was having a baby, her sister, her confidant and future co-conspirator. What an amazing little girl. Julie arrived at that time, maybe around 2-2:30 or so. She started to film and take pictures. She rubbed my back a lot, which really helped. My back would hurt about half of the time. And my hips hurt a lot. I really felt that something different was happening. I got into the water around 3:00pm again, and I asked Joel or someone, to call Jeanne…to call everyone. I knew that I was going to have her today. I was so different this time because I usually labor surrounded by women. I never really cared if Joel was there or not, but this time, because it was so much more intense and painful, I only wanted him. I needed to be next to him. I would squat and sit on my calves, and lean against him. He said that after one really hard contraction, I reached up and kissed him. How very “Spiritual Midwifery” of me! I loved him so hard that day. My best friend, the father of my girls. What a man. I know when J arrived. As for everyone else, I couldn’t tell you. I know my best friend Amber arrived shortly after Julie, or maybe before her. Then I would look up and more and more people would be there, surrounding me. I really felt like giving up after awhile. I knew that something was different. Not wrong, but different. I really felt like I was in transition in the tub, the contractions were so intense. The transition lasted for about three hours. I couldn’t focus and I couldn’t keep up with what my body was doing. I thought that I might have to push, but when I pushed, the feeling would go away. It was so confusing. Finally J asked me if I had to push, or if I thought that I could pa-pa-pa through a couple of them. I pa-pa’d once, and that was fine. My friend Amber took some notes too:<br><br>
Urge to bear down 4:24p<br><br>
Out of tub: 5:10p<br><br>
Slow dancing with Joel: 5:20p<br><br>
Sarah lays back and smiles: 6:15p<br><br>
Sarah asks if anyone wants to take over!: 6:35p<br><br>
Born: 6:59pm<br><br>
Cord cut: 7:07p<br><br>
Placenta: 7:10p<br><br>
Latches on: 7:17p<br><br><br>
I really felt that I couldn’t go on. I felt like I was thrashing around, and I was really vocal, which isn’t like me at all. I usually am very quiet when I give birth. It just kind of came out though. J and V got me out of the tub and into the bathroom to empty my bladder. I did and decided to stay there. They said that my contractions were spacing out some, and had me eat a banana (which was absolutely disgusting and I don’t recommend it) and some honey water. I labored on the toilet, which was awful yet strangely satisfying, and then I slow danced with my husband, which was amazing. That was the best part of the whole process. I think that Nick Drakes “Pink Moon” was on. He proposed to me on the north shore when there was a pink moon. Of course I didn’t believe him and said to get down on one knee...which he wouldn’t do…things kept filtering in and out of my mind. Someone put a towel under my legs because I had so much bloody show. I thought that my water had broken, but it hadn’t. It didn’t break until she came out. Bob Marley was on then. It was strange to be giving birth during the day in the summertime, after two midnight winter babies. I got back in the water around 6ish. I just moved around. It was different then before. Sometimes my back would really hurt, and C, my doula would push on it. Sometimes my hips hurt. It felt good to push down on the front of my thighs when I was sitting on my legs. Almost like counter pressure for my hips. I was feeling pushy again, but I was scared to push if I wasn’t ready. I thought that I would just die if I wasn’t complete. I tried to focus on who I was doing this for, and I remembered, Mallaigh Rose, who is working with me to be born. I love her so much. And I smiled when I was in the sharpest pain. I wanted to meet her so much. She is so amazing. A little later, I wanted to stop again and asked if anyone would mind taking over for awhile. J checked me for the first time, as this was a strange labor pattern and very intense. The babe’s head was right there, and she guided my hand in to feel her. Wow. I had never wanted to check myself before in any other births, but this time, I found myself doing it more and more. I couldn’t tell where we were in our labor, the contractions were doing there own little dance. I laid back to start pushing. I couldn’t have told you where people were at, or who was even there at that time. I had prepared all of these people to come and help me…I needed women surrounding me before. But I didn’t this time. I needed Joel and I needed J. But I took in everyone’s strength. I listened to everyone encourage us. I wouldn’t have changed anything at all. So I started to push….and then I didn’t want to!! I told Jeanne that I was really scared to push her out. It felt different. It was so painful. It hadn’t been that painful the last two times. And she said that I just had to let that fear go. And that I had to push anyway. So I did. I pushed and felt her come down…it felt strange…but I let it go. And I pushed again and felt her burn and go back in. And then I decided it was time for her to come, so I pushed hard. And kept pushing and she crowned and shot out in one contraction. Joel missed her completely. She came out so fast that no-one noticed she was complete occiput posterior. I didn’t even know that until I watched the video! She snapped back because the cord was around her neck twice. She was a complete brow presentation, which means that she was born forehead first. No wonder it felt like I was pushing out a rectangle. J told me that 85% of brow presentation births aren’t able to be born vaginally. In the twenty years that Jeanne has been attending birth, she has never seen a complete brow presentation. I do always like to be original! That is why she didn’t want to come out. I am so glad that I decided to induce her. There was no water at all, and what little there was had meconium staining. With the cord wrapped twice, and her head all crazy, I needed that extra time to be able to work with her. When I told J that she was OP (sunnyside up) she didn’t believe me!! She came so fast and with the cord entanglement, no-one noticed. I held her in the water while they untangled her. She was under for 29 seconds. Along time to me, I just wanted her…but then she was in my arms. And at my breast soon after. My placenta was calcified and spongy. A sign of deterioration. But Mallaigh was perfect. She has some bruising and swelling on her forehead and the top of her head, but we took her into the chiropractor for cranial sacral work when she was two days old, and she is great. She was 8#’s 20 ½ inches long. She, of course, looks just like her daddy. I love her fiercely. She was worth it. So amazing. She is so amazing.<br><br>
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What a beautiful story. So inspirational. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/luxlove.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="throb">
 

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Congratulations; what a wonderful story! Thank you for sharing your photos with us! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin">
 

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Congratulations!!! What a beautiful story and pictures!! Thanks for sharing, you are amazing and inspiring!!
 

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Great story! The pictures are so amazing.
 

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Congratulations on your new family member!<br><br>
Thank you for sharing her birth story with us <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">
 

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What wonderful pictures!!!<br><br>
Bless your new baby. Your daughters are so sweet. I loved the pics were your oldest dd is mothering you, rubbing your back and then giving you a drink. How lucky they are to have a family where birth is a normal part of their lives! They will know how to birth naturally!!! with the support of loving husbands, friends, daughters and other women around them.<br><br>
You are awesome mamma!!!
 

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Gorgeous! You're giving me more of that baby fever with these amazing birth stories. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/luxlove.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="throb">
 

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I love what you said about birthing. I’m a new-be mom. My daughter, Sienna, was born January 16th. I live in CT and felt like a true freak of nature for going to a birthing center. Honestly, people made it sound like I was putting my life and my baby’s life in jeopardy. Sienna was born in the water (10.6 pounds). I have no doubt that had I pursued a hospital birth they would have done 100 sonograms, found out she was big, induced labor, and so forth. Actually I met a woman who said she had to be induced because her baby was so big. Of course, I had to ask. She said 8 pounds.<br><br>
Sienna and I had a beautiful labor. I continue to feel like I have 3 heads because I breastfeed still at 5 months. Little does everyone know I plan to continue until Sienna weans. I breastfeed until I was 3 ½ so I’m prepared for something like that.<br>
After being pregnant and giving birth in such an epidural, episiotomy, formula culture I became so fired up – I want to revolt! Why haven’t I met anyone else who put any time into planning their labor?!?! Why don’t other people want to read books other than to gross mainstream ones out there? I often say that so many women spend more time planning their wedding day than their labor. That’s why I love how you say - “Women of the earth, take back your birth.” I want to make bumper stickers and tea shirts. I love too what you said about birthing. Birth is sacred and a privilege, you’re right!<br><br>
Well done with your summer baby. You and Mallaigh did an incredible job together. You two must have a magical connection. As I was reading I was thinking I wanted to email you to ask you why you thought your labor was so different this time. As a naïve newbie – I think/hope that if the first baby pops out all the rest will follow the same way. Sienna and I labored for 15 hours and I pushed for only 17 minutes. Pushing wasn’t my favorite part. I felt like I could do contractions all week long… but the pushing… I’m just glad I got lucky. But then you answered my question. Mallaigh was in a different position. Well done to you both for working together! Amazing! Your story is so inspirational.<br><br>
Much love to you and your family!<br><br>
Cari
 

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Cari-<br><br>
Thank you for your beautiful words. It is amazing how different births can be, depending on which child is waiting to be born. Kettie Mae's birth story is also on this board, down at the bottom I think, or maybe on page two. Her birth was pretty wonderful. I don't look at you like you have three heads, lol...I am nursing my 3 1/2 year old and my almost one year old!!
 

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great story and pics makes me wish Ihad allowed a camera during Jewely's birth.
 

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Oh, that's pretty.
 
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