I am so damn tired. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep.
School is too much right now. Since I was very ill all throughout Xmas break, only had 4 days of any vacation during Spring break...I have basically been going NON-STOP since July. The intensity of the program, the student-teaching, the job search (which, in itself, is a bloody full-time job), etc is beating me down.
I am tired of having an amazing dp, who is NEVER frickin' around. I am tired of having a long-distance relationship. I am tired, I am tired, I am tired!!!!
My poor ds is so angry at me. I have been short-tempered, lacking in patience and just unable to connect with him. Goddamnit...he is only 3.75 years old!!!
There really is no solution to my issues right now. I am just having a VERY hard time. I have felt this breakdown coming for awhile...I am surprised I have been able to hold it off this long, to be honest. I probably should have dealt with it sooner, but with what time?
Everybody, my family, my professors, DP, my cooperating teacher, etc, are absolutely wonderful and supportive. I guess I just need to feel it...deal with it...and regroup again.
I don't necessarily know why I am posting this here, especially since I don't always feel like I belong. But, I have seen you all give so much sympathy and hugs, I guess I just figured you might have some for me.
Thanks.
School is too much right now. Since I was very ill all throughout Xmas break, only had 4 days of any vacation during Spring break...I have basically been going NON-STOP since July. The intensity of the program, the student-teaching, the job search (which, in itself, is a bloody full-time job), etc is beating me down.
I am tired of having an amazing dp, who is NEVER frickin' around. I am tired of having a long-distance relationship. I am tired, I am tired, I am tired!!!!
My poor ds is so angry at me. I have been short-tempered, lacking in patience and just unable to connect with him. Goddamnit...he is only 3.75 years old!!!
There really is no solution to my issues right now. I am just having a VERY hard time. I have felt this breakdown coming for awhile...I am surprised I have been able to hold it off this long, to be honest. I probably should have dealt with it sooner, but with what time?
Everybody, my family, my professors, DP, my cooperating teacher, etc, are absolutely wonderful and supportive. I guess I just need to feel it...deal with it...and regroup again.
I don't necessarily know why I am posting this here, especially since I don't always feel like I belong. But, I have seen you all give so much sympathy and hugs, I guess I just figured you might have some for me.
Thanks.