[KittyDanger]

I have one DS, now 2 years old, and for various reasons I gave up nursing him at 6 weeks.

Although I felt it was the right decision for me at the time I still grieved terribly. I didn't shower for three days when I gave it up so I wouldn't have to look at my breasts

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I have friends who nurse and it makes me so sad that I didn't continue through the challeneges. Now that he is getting older and I am starting to miss his baby days, it is the BF that I miss the most.

I am hoping to TTC again in September and BF is what I look forward to most with having a newborn again.

Just wanted to share

 

[soccermama]

Wow. I could've written your post. I went through the same thing when I was nursing my DS, who is now 3. I had low milk supply and had to supplement with formula. The nursing stopped when he was 2 1/2 months. I had friends that nursed, too and it killed me to see them do that, hear about it, read about it, and I truly believe that it pro-longed my PPD.

So, many hugs to you

We are going to start TTC #2 soon, too. I miss the baby days and I've got the fever beyond belief!!

When we have #2, I will certainly try harder to make sure that the nursing is much more successful and longer.

 

[KnittingTigers]

yup, me too. i've EP'd for my DD for eight months, and am getting ready to stop. one of things i most look forward to about having another baby is the chance to make BFing work.

one thing that i try to remember is that i've learned SO MUCH since having my daughter, and i feel way more prepared for BFing the second time around.

 

[indeospero]

Sending you big

I think it's great that you are giving yourself the space to have these feelings, and articulating them so well. I'm sure you will find nursing future babies to be very healing!

 

[Katie T]

I too understand your feelings. My first went on a nursing strike at 4 months and I tried everything and couldn't get her back to the breast. I pumped till I dried up so she could at least have my milk, But was always so

I had baby number 2 and nursed him till he weaning on his own 5 wks after #3 arrived. I was a very healing experience for me! Good luck I bet you will get the nursing experience next time around.

 

[Slabobbin]

Hugs mama. I could have written your post. I didn't even make it to anywhere near six weeks with my first baby (although I desperately wanted to). I mourned it and felt so much guilt over it and wanted another baby so badly so that I to could do it "right" (in my mind). When he was three and a half I had another baby.

At two weeks old she was diagnosed failure to thrive and it was discovered that I have a low milk supply due to PCOS. To say I was heartbroken and devistated would be a huge understatement.

But I think that the guilt I felt over my son made me try that much harder with my daughter. We did have to supplement with formula the entire time but she LOVED her "ninny" more than anything and we nursed for 2 1/2 years until she self weaned.

I now have an eight months old who is nursing. I still have a low supply and we still have to supplement but we are going strong.

I understand your feelings and there IS life on the other side. Mourn your loss and try again next time. I bet you make it.

 

[KittyDanger]

Thank you mamas

 

[Leah_R]

I am sorry you are mourning that. I do understand though. Even though I nursed my dd until she was 22 mn, and she is now 4 years. Now I am pregnant with my second, and I can not wait to be nursing again. I missed it so much.