Okay I know that for most of us preemie mamas it can be hard sometimes to relate to full term mamas. I know it is for me. Whenever people talk about their birth experiences etc. I feel bitter because I had two emergency c-sections and didn't get to see my babies for days after because I was so sick (I had severe pre-e with both pregnancies). Anyway I guess I am just wondering how do you move on and heal? Both of my girls are doing great now and I know I should just be satisfied with that because some people aren't so lucky. It is still hard for me though. With both of the births my DH was away (he is in the Army) and both times not only was I incredibly sick but I also was very scared for my daughters lives. It was so hard for me laying alone sick in a room without my baby or my DH there. I got so depressed at night in the hospital when I would hear families and new mothers laughing and talking and hear healthy babies crying and being brought to their mothers. I had to pump every two hours and then call the nurse to take my milk up to the NICU. At the hospital I was at with my second daughter they had a free celebration meal and every nurse I had would come in and be all cheery and say oh wow congratulations, you must be so happy and excited. It was just soo hard for me. I didn't feel like celebrating or being happy. I was just so jealous and still am of people that have a full term pregnancy. Am I alone in this?!