My mother just called and told me. I'm a bit <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/bawling.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="bawl"> but otherwise OK. It's weird because I posted about her on another thread - about how she went missing for a few days but came home, so she was fresh in my mind. Smudge did not live with me, she lived with my parents because the last two apartments I've lived are no-pets. She was 18, I had her from the time I was 11. It's hard to believe. I'm just very sad and sorry I couldn't be with her when she died.