[mommymarliah]

I hate that I get like this, but I constantly get angry at myself for not doing school "the way it should be done" you know like the assingment sheets have it set up. Like this last year I did Sonlight and if I didn't get the boxes checked every day I felt like I failed. I finally started to get past that and realized that if we missed science one day or we forgot to do handwriting it was ok.....So when I found waldorf it was like a breath of fresh air, no more filling out forms and assignment sheets and stuff. So excitedly I ordered the Oak Meadow stuff, with the intention of starting as soon as it got here, but now I have all the new Oak Meadow stuff here, I just keep putting it off til tommorrow. Continuing to use Songlight, feeling like if I jump out of that and into the OM I am somehow failing at the Sonlight....or being wasteful for not finishing it all (we are only halfway through it too :/). I have read the process manual and half of the heart of learning manuals. All the boys things are organized in their school bins and I just can't take that final leap. Afraid I will take this wonderful curriculum and not be able to do it the way I want to. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/dizzy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Dizzy">: I know I'm being silly, and I know Oak Meadow is alot more laid back than Sonlight when it comes to daily work....but still. I want so badly to be a wonderful teacher to these kiddos and I really don't want to start this off knowing before a week is over we will have already had to somehow modify it (my older two have autism, so nothing ever goes by the book lol). And wondering if I would be wrong to switch over now when we havent finished the Sonlight yet....<br><br>
I figured you all could tell me how silly I'm being. I know I am, I just need someone to tell me its ok to move forward I guess.

 

[AnnR33]

OK, I'll tell you "JUST DO IT!" <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wink1.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wink1"><br><br>
Just a few questions though...how do your kids like Sonlight? Are they loving or just tolerating it because it's "school?" I'd be hesitant to change if it was working really well for my kids. And you said it was working better for you since you got over the "box checking" mentality (trust me, I understand where you're coming from too!).<br><br>
Do you think you're hesitating OM because it might be too relaxed for YOU? Maybe you need a little more structure yourself to "know you're getting something done?" I know I'm like this.<br><br>
If all the above is not relevant then I say just pick a day-Monday-and try it for a month (or whatever). You could take an hour on Sunday night after the kids go to bed and prepare yourself for the change-look thru the day's lessons, organize the books, etc. Then make it a fun event on Monday.<br><br>
If it works out-GREAT! If not, then so what? Nothing lost (hopefully you can return it so you don't lose $).<br><br>
The great thing about homeschooling is that there are so many great programs/resources available to us.<br><br>
GOOD LUCK <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">