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I don't frequent the Abuse forum because I think it is too much of a trigger for me. But the UA said I could post here so I am sharing with you.<br><br>
I not I'm not ready and I not know why. Frankly it is hard to breathe when I think about it.<br><br>
When I was about three years old I was molested by a friend of the family (male). I told. It was drama. My mom kicked his ass. Yadda yadda.<br><br>
Now last night my DD asks to go potty on the big potty after her bath. So I get all excited because I am not a potty pusher and was waiting for the day she would just want to do it on her own. She is two years old (b-day in November).<br><br>
So I sit her on the potty and I start to have anxiety. I didn't realize why until today. It is because the person who violated me did it while I was on the potty (after telling him I needed to pee and asking him to stop so I could pee). I always knew how it happened but I never thought I would associate it with potty training my DD.<br><br>
So the lightbulb went off today and I realized this was what was holding me back from encouraging her to get out of diapers. In fact, I went so far as to tell DH I hoped she never did it again (after she pooped on the potty at 18 months). Instead of taking her cue and running with it, I hid the baby potty from her so she wouldn't think about it.<br><br>
Any idea how I overcome this? I mean who has a hang up about potty training their kid? What kind of freak am I?
 

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You aren't a freak. You need to heal from the past. Being a parent brings up all sorts of old (and buried) emotions. Seeing some of the normal events in child rearing bring out fears and anxieties, even when you haven't been exposed to something as awful as outright violations to your body and mind. I don't have personal experience with molestation, but I know it's a very serious emotional and physical truama.<br><br>
I suggest you go for some counseling to help you work through the feelings?
 

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<span style="font-family:'Comic Sans MS';"><span style="font-size:medium;"><span><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2"> I'm sorry; I don't have much advice either. Counselling or self-help books would be a good start. Maybe a self-help group...? If it were me; I'd try to accept that what happened to me is in the past; face it head-on and talk it out. I'd join the abuse forum and maybe don't read at first, but post your problem there for other's to help you by sharing what's helped them. You could even write in your post that you don't want others to share their personal experiences in your thread yet; because you're just not ready for it.<br><br>
I wish you all the best on your road to healing.</span></span></span>
 

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I would look into some counselling.<br><br>
I would also look into ways that might make it easier for you. Is it the potty that is the trigger or her using the potty? The reason I am asking is because I am wondering whether if you got a toilet seat and a stool, maybe it wouldn't be so triggering for you?<br><br>
I don't know what else to suggest really. I think you need to heal and that is what your body is telling you, its just how you go about it that I am not sure about.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">
 
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