I'm a mess. He has fluid around his testicle and it's getting bigger and since he's almost 2, the surgeon said it needs to be fixed. I'm horrified. I don't want him to be scared. I can't nurse him 3 hours before we get there... he's gonna flip out about that and then when they take him away from me, he's gonna FLIP out and so am I. I'm supposed to protect him and he's gonna think I abandoned him... isn't he? He's not going to trust me after this. I'm so upset. It's April 7th. How am I going to get through this? I'm a mess, huh?