Why is it that at one moment, I am very confident in my decisions & then the next it is all gone?????
I know my baby is safe. My midwife is checking me & the baby 2ce a week. My health is fine. Baby is healthy & thriving.
Why then do I feed myself all that crap about being late being dangerous??
It is such a vicious cycle!!! It is driving me crazy! I can not stand the voices in my head. I wish it all to go away & just trust this process. Why does the medical community still have such power over me, when I have worked so hard to avoid it???
I guess I just needed to cry & vent to those that understand. I am tired of well meaning people saying the damnest most stupid words to me. UGH!!!
Ok off to bed & have a good cry & have DH hold me!
Sorry for the rant.
I know my baby is safe. My midwife is checking me & the baby 2ce a week. My health is fine. Baby is healthy & thriving.
Why then do I feed myself all that crap about being late being dangerous??
It is such a vicious cycle!!! It is driving me crazy! I can not stand the voices in my head. I wish it all to go away & just trust this process. Why does the medical community still have such power over me, when I have worked so hard to avoid it???
I guess I just needed to cry & vent to those that understand. I am tired of well meaning people saying the damnest most stupid words to me. UGH!!!
Ok off to bed & have a good cry & have DH hold me!
Sorry for the rant.